I was on the train heading back home after undergoing some health check.
which means my blood was sucked by that damn syringe!! *i hate you, syringes*
that was only small amount of blood *of course, otherwise i wont be writing this post now* but nonetheless i felt so queasy, weary like some sign of anemic.. *exaggeration!!;p*
the already bad thing had just became worse when someone board the train, sending signal of some nasty aroma, and the worst of my day had just begun when she sat in front of me..for goodness sake!!~~
She was so smelly, stinky, smell like some old rotten bok choy!!
she is not asian, just in case if you guys are wondering because I put the magic word "racist" on the title.
that was on flinders st station. i tried to just sit there and cover my nose, trying not to vomit, just because i didnt want to hurt her feeling assuming she would go down several station after..
But 3 stations after and she still did not go down, i waited until the train approaching the next station and then i moved seat, pretending i was leaving the train.
Good thing that I moved because apparently she went down at the same station with me which means around 40 minutes from Flinders st station minus three stations after..
And that got me to think. how much extra money do you spend to take a shower every now and then??does that hurt you to have a shower every now and then??how long have you clean your house since the last you did??
As my fave vlogger, Nigahiga, said in his latest "off the pill - stink people" vlog,
you STINK PEOPLE are making this world bulimicc!!!!!
you are hurting yourself and hurting others around you.
you are hurting the WORLD!!
please take a shower, people!!how is taking a shower gonna hurt you??and that wont take much of your time. have a quick shower and we all will be peacefully riding the train........or the bus....and the tram!!
Today, I promised myself to study at home. to rush my assignments *because I have 3 and they are due in just one week time* but I ended up watching MyChoony on youtube and having a fling for ShimmyCocoPuffsss..
Hey, i know he's got a gf but i've gotta say he is hott..hahahaha :D
you are some hot stuff, dude!!but i watched your old videos and i dont like the you in you puber time. i like you now better..hahaha.
however, that's not gonna change the fact that my most faves are nigahiga and kevjumba.........and happyslip *im not sexist;p*
anyway, got to go back to my assignment.
ciaooo..
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Happy belated bday to me
I was bashed, cold water *in a cold early-spring night*, with egg, and flour..
after pictures and pictures, i took a shower.
out from shower, another round is waiting for me..*and i was helpless*
and so i was covered in tomato sauce and bbq sauce from head to toe.
yeah, my dear friends did that..
So, that incident plus chocolate cake and another cheesecake marked my 21st bday.
a special day, for most people.
anyway, i hate my 21st bday.
not because i dont want to live *for goodness sake!!*
i am just not ready with the responsibilities, life challenge, burden that comes with the number two-enty-one;p
and so, there are questions that come with those reasons for not enjoying my two-enty-one-st birthday.
the foremost question was from my bff "what sorts of burden and responsibilities??"
lets take an example, given the exact same situation and same mistake, only that the wrong-doer was 15 yo vs 21 yo. how will people react on each of those situation?
Miss Maria Teresa Vania Sumargo has done, although little *NONE!!* but convincing, research and found out that:
15 yo: "that's alright, she is just 15 yo. understandable. this will be a lesson for her so that she wont do the same mistake when she's all grown-up"
*wow wow wowwwwww...*
21 yo: "she's a dumbass, stupid moron, how old is she??for goodness sake!!she's twenty onee!!"
*hell yeahhh..*
lets make another scenario.........
two unemployed, both are girls, age 21 vs 26.
how will people react??
Again, according to Miss Maria Teresa Vania Sumargo uber-unreal research, *muwahaha* she found out that:
21 yo: she's just 21, she just graduated from uni. more over it is economy downturn. just bear with hear another few months.."
26 yo: she's supposed to have a stable income by now. How could she be unemployed in such a condition. it is economy downturn and she cant even support herself??her parents are still supporting her? oh my goodness"
*uh-ohhh..*
see the difference noww??
as someone grows, people will start growing expectation of him/her.
as you grow older and older, you have even less and less chance of screwing your life up. which in some condition is inevitable.
nonetheless it's up to that person as to how he/she will react to this burden and responsibilities.
I chose to face this gracefully, happily, and with God. this way, the burden has just suddenly become much lighter..
So, happy 21st bday vania..
and hapy 23rd bday nekkk..;p
i love you nek...hahaha;p
ps: so i already settled my debt of a post on my birthday;p
after pictures and pictures, i took a shower.
out from shower, another round is waiting for me..*and i was helpless*
and so i was covered in tomato sauce and bbq sauce from head to toe.
yeah, my dear friends did that..
So, that incident plus chocolate cake and another cheesecake marked my 21st bday.
a special day, for most people.
anyway, i hate my 21st bday.
not because i dont want to live *for goodness sake!!*
i am just not ready with the responsibilities, life challenge, burden that comes with the number two-enty-one;p
and so, there are questions that come with those reasons for not enjoying my two-enty-one-st birthday.
the foremost question was from my bff "what sorts of burden and responsibilities??"
lets take an example, given the exact same situation and same mistake, only that the wrong-doer was 15 yo vs 21 yo. how will people react on each of those situation?
Miss Maria Teresa Vania Sumargo has done, although little *NONE!!* but convincing, research and found out that:
15 yo: "that's alright, she is just 15 yo. understandable. this will be a lesson for her so that she wont do the same mistake when she's all grown-up"
*wow wow wowwwwww...*
21 yo: "she's a dumbass, stupid moron, how old is she??for goodness sake!!she's twenty onee!!"
*hell yeahhh..*
lets make another scenario.........
two unemployed, both are girls, age 21 vs 26.
how will people react??
Again, according to Miss Maria Teresa Vania Sumargo uber-unreal research, *muwahaha* she found out that:
21 yo: she's just 21, she just graduated from uni. more over it is economy downturn. just bear with hear another few months.."
26 yo: she's supposed to have a stable income by now. How could she be unemployed in such a condition. it is economy downturn and she cant even support herself??her parents are still supporting her? oh my goodness"
*uh-ohhh..*
see the difference noww??
as someone grows, people will start growing expectation of him/her.
as you grow older and older, you have even less and less chance of screwing your life up. which in some condition is inevitable.
nonetheless it's up to that person as to how he/she will react to this burden and responsibilities.
I chose to face this gracefully, happily, and with God. this way, the burden has just suddenly become much lighter..
So, happy 21st bday vania..
and hapy 23rd bday nekkk..;p
i love you nek...hahaha;p
ps: so i already settled my debt of a post on my birthday;p
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
When the road of life still lies ahead..
I was just watching videos on youtube when I found interesting Singaporean director Yasmin Ahmad and tried to search her name on internet.
I found she was just recently dead. Leaving a beautiful project behind that is the film of Thaddeus Cheong, a Singaporean triathlon athlete who was dead on 2007 after he finished his pre-SEA games race.
Anyway, I wont be talking about Yasmin Ahmad, nor I will be talking about Thadd although I will relate this person to Thadd a lot.
I dont know Thad. I just found out about this guy only a few hour ago.
But the grieve of his friends, his closest friends who had fun only a few days before he passed away, who went on a fishing trip a few weeks before, I understand their feeling.
I know how it feels to lose someone you love, someone that you adore, idolised.
I was once had a friend like that.
He passed away when I was 12 and he was 18, now that I am 21, he passed away 9 years ago.
But the pain still lingers and just did not go away. Time did not wash the pain and the loss of a friend, a brother.
Even as I write this I am crying for I miss my friend, my brother.
He was an athlete like Thadd was.
My friend liked to do barongsai (the traditional chinese lion dance).
He had not got a chance to do barongsai few years before his death.
But the last time he did that he passed away, still wearing the lion costume. He went away doing the thing he liked, just like Thadd. He was 18 and Thadd was 17.
My friend was a boy a mother could ever ask. He was a student a teacher could ever ask. He was a friend, a brother, people could ever ask.
See how much alikeness they had..
That was why when I read those blog entries made by Thadd's friends I cant hold back anymore.
I miss my friend too much.
He is the reason why I took accounting, he is the reason why I make myself love accounting. He had a dream that I want so much to fulfill. Though it was a 12-yo's dream, I grow up carrying the dream to fulfill his dream. Without his dream I will not have one, for my dream is his.
He is the one who make me the way I am today.
It's been 9 years and the pain and the emptiness just did not go away.
I want to show him the girl I have become.
His death taught me a lot. I used to think why a boy as perfect as him passed away so fast when the road of his life still lies long ahead. I wonder what he would become if he still lived on now. He'll be 30 yo now. Will he be an athlete still or will he be a business man?
If only I could turn back time..............
May my friend and Thadd rest in peace=)
I hope they are now in a place where there are no happiness, no sadness, just peacefulness.
I found she was just recently dead. Leaving a beautiful project behind that is the film of Thaddeus Cheong, a Singaporean triathlon athlete who was dead on 2007 after he finished his pre-SEA games race.
Anyway, I wont be talking about Yasmin Ahmad, nor I will be talking about Thadd although I will relate this person to Thadd a lot.
I dont know Thad. I just found out about this guy only a few hour ago.
But the grieve of his friends, his closest friends who had fun only a few days before he passed away, who went on a fishing trip a few weeks before, I understand their feeling.
I know how it feels to lose someone you love, someone that you adore, idolised.
I was once had a friend like that.
He passed away when I was 12 and he was 18, now that I am 21, he passed away 9 years ago.
But the pain still lingers and just did not go away. Time did not wash the pain and the loss of a friend, a brother.
Even as I write this I am crying for I miss my friend, my brother.
He was an athlete like Thadd was.
My friend liked to do barongsai (the traditional chinese lion dance).
He had not got a chance to do barongsai few years before his death.
But the last time he did that he passed away, still wearing the lion costume. He went away doing the thing he liked, just like Thadd. He was 18 and Thadd was 17.
My friend was a boy a mother could ever ask. He was a student a teacher could ever ask. He was a friend, a brother, people could ever ask.
See how much alikeness they had..
That was why when I read those blog entries made by Thadd's friends I cant hold back anymore.
I miss my friend too much.
He is the reason why I took accounting, he is the reason why I make myself love accounting. He had a dream that I want so much to fulfill. Though it was a 12-yo's dream, I grow up carrying the dream to fulfill his dream. Without his dream I will not have one, for my dream is his.
He is the one who make me the way I am today.
It's been 9 years and the pain and the emptiness just did not go away.
I want to show him the girl I have become.
His death taught me a lot. I used to think why a boy as perfect as him passed away so fast when the road of his life still lies long ahead. I wonder what he would become if he still lived on now. He'll be 30 yo now. Will he be an athlete still or will he be a business man?
If only I could turn back time..............
May my friend and Thadd rest in peace=)
I hope they are now in a place where there are no happiness, no sadness, just peacefulness.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
what does it take to be a beautiful girl??
Is it our beautiful, famous-branded, designer, clothes?
Is it our bag that costs us thousands of dollars??
Or is it the make ups we put on?
Or maybe is it our 10cm-heel *hell* shoes??
What about our mini skirts??hot pants??bikinis??do they make us look beautiful??
do we look better in our uber pricey, sexy-looking, garment-lacking tops???
Or is it our truly-natural looking self that is carrying our most pure heart that makes us look beautifull??
which one is more appealing? a girl wearing a oh-so-not-elegant burberry pattern shirt but does not look good on her??or a girl who just wear a plain polo shirt but dress up gracefully???
what do u guys reckon??
what defines a person? what makes a person that person?
does a person look better if they use a latest phone on the market??
will a person look better if they eat uber-pricey, unhealthy, fatty food??
or maybe he/she looks better if he/she eats so-called-healthy0but-in-fact-not caesar salad??
fyi, caesar salad is so fatty...!! dont ear caesar salad for the sake of salad-thing because it will make u -still- fatt..!!
at the end of the day, it is your choice to define a beautiful girl.
you choose to be the person you want yourself to be.
beacuse i, personally, believe that if you are yourself, then you will look gorgeous doesnt matter who you are, how do you look, whether you are having a bad hair day, or just wearing a t-shirt and jeans.
the beauty is inside. not outside.
does not matter how you dress, what phone do you use, is it jimmy choo you are wearing, you look gorgeous if you are gorgeous inside.
life is full of choices.
life is hard per se. dont make it harder by trying to be someone else just to please people because you cannot please everybody.
you are who you wanted to be. you already chose to be who you are.
you are who you are and be who you want to be.
agreed???=)
Is it our bag that costs us thousands of dollars??
Or is it the make ups we put on?
Or maybe is it our 10cm-heel *hell* shoes??
What about our mini skirts??hot pants??bikinis??do they make us look beautiful??
do we look better in our uber pricey, sexy-looking, garment-lacking tops???
Or is it our truly-natural looking self that is carrying our most pure heart that makes us look beautifull??
which one is more appealing? a girl wearing a oh-so-not-elegant burberry pattern shirt but does not look good on her??or a girl who just wear a plain polo shirt but dress up gracefully???
what do u guys reckon??
what defines a person? what makes a person that person?
does a person look better if they use a latest phone on the market??
will a person look better if they eat uber-pricey, unhealthy, fatty food??
or maybe he/she looks better if he/she eats so-called-healthy0but-in-fact-not caesar salad??
fyi, caesar salad is so fatty...!! dont ear caesar salad for the sake of salad-thing because it will make u -still- fatt..!!
at the end of the day, it is your choice to define a beautiful girl.
you choose to be the person you want yourself to be.
beacuse i, personally, believe that if you are yourself, then you will look gorgeous doesnt matter who you are, how do you look, whether you are having a bad hair day, or just wearing a t-shirt and jeans.
the beauty is inside. not outside.
does not matter how you dress, what phone do you use, is it jimmy choo you are wearing, you look gorgeous if you are gorgeous inside.
life is full of choices.
life is hard per se. dont make it harder by trying to be someone else just to please people because you cannot please everybody.
you are who you wanted to be. you already chose to be who you are.
you are who you are and be who you want to be.
agreed???=)
Friday, June 5, 2009
the one with the withdrawal of her best friend..
Been long since the last post..haha
Anyway, I’ve got a lil bit of problem here.
I have a good friend. A guy.
Just recently I feel that he’s withdrawing himself.
I wanted to ask “hey dude what happened?” but I can’t. Don’t ask me why.. I just cannot. Hahaha.. call me conservative if u want..LOL
Has he found himself a girlfriend and he is afraid that she might get jealous?? Wooww.. Im tempted to think that way but less likely..hahaha but anyway, who knows??=)
Or is he trying to tell me that he felt I like him and he’s trying to tell me “I don’t like u mate. So f*ck off..” hahahaha.. will be shocking if it is..ROFL.
But yeahh.. I feel he’s withdrawing himself. The reason? Only God knows and some of his friends I reckon.
It’s kinda weird…!!! I feel weird because usually we are so close. We always joke around. Even from the way he’s joking with me I can sense that it’s somehow different. Feels like he is trying to keep some distance between us. Was it just me or he actually is???
And the other day, he accused me –jokingly- that I lied to him..
WTH mateee!!! I didn’t lie about anything. I have never hid anything from you. You are one of my closest friends. I wont hide things from my close friends cos’ you guys are my second family..=) was this “so-called lie” is the reason for the distance??
ORRRRRR…the worst thing that I can think is that I did make a mistake!!!
OhMyDearestGod..!!! did I ?????
Anyway, I hope this weird feeling is just one sided..=)
I hope I didn’t make a mistake.. I am truly madly deeply sorry dory morry if I did.. Of course you know I didn’t mean to do so..T.T
I have another idea popped out in my head just a moment ago. Maybe he does that for "this" reason that is kinda inappropriate to put it down here..
Not that he liked me because I believe not for any shit on this world he will!!!hahaha=p *and I am pretty sure this reason cannot be categorized as inappropriate*
so, just leave this out.
SO, to finish this...
xoxo my dear friend..i miss the old you =(
and please let me know when the old you has came backk..:)
Ps: exam period is coming ahead, I expect a weight gain of 1-2 kilos in the next two weeks..
PPs: A gain of 3-4 kilos is also expected taking into account my swollen body resulted from staying up late..haha
Ps again: also I might be an anti-social person until 22 June 2009. And I might experience more sensitive feeling during that period so just bear with me for a moment..hahahaha=p *finding excuses*
PPs again: Yaaaayyyyy..I still have an elective subject left so, it means, I can take Chinese as my elective. And believe me, I will take the level that wont bore the hell out of me, but will make me graduate by the end of this year..!!!hahaha=)
Anyway, I’ve got a lil bit of problem here.
I have a good friend. A guy.
Just recently I feel that he’s withdrawing himself.
I wanted to ask “hey dude what happened?” but I can’t. Don’t ask me why.. I just cannot. Hahaha.. call me conservative if u want..LOL
Has he found himself a girlfriend and he is afraid that she might get jealous?? Wooww.. Im tempted to think that way but less likely..hahaha but anyway, who knows??=)
Or is he trying to tell me that he felt I like him and he’s trying to tell me “I don’t like u mate. So f*ck off..” hahahaha.. will be shocking if it is..ROFL.
But yeahh.. I feel he’s withdrawing himself. The reason? Only God knows and some of his friends I reckon.
It’s kinda weird…!!! I feel weird because usually we are so close. We always joke around. Even from the way he’s joking with me I can sense that it’s somehow different. Feels like he is trying to keep some distance between us. Was it just me or he actually is???
And the other day, he accused me –jokingly- that I lied to him..
WTH mateee!!! I didn’t lie about anything. I have never hid anything from you. You are one of my closest friends. I wont hide things from my close friends cos’ you guys are my second family..=) was this “so-called lie” is the reason for the distance??
ORRRRRR…the worst thing that I can think is that I did make a mistake!!!
OhMyDearestGod..!!! did I ?????
Anyway, I hope this weird feeling is just one sided..=)
I hope I didn’t make a mistake.. I am truly madly deeply sorry dory morry if I did.. Of course you know I didn’t mean to do so..T.T
I have another idea popped out in my head just a moment ago. Maybe he does that for "this" reason that is kinda inappropriate to put it down here..
Not that he liked me because I believe not for any shit on this world he will!!!hahaha=p *and I am pretty sure this reason cannot be categorized as inappropriate*
so, just leave this out.
SO, to finish this...
xoxo my dear friend..i miss the old you =(
and please let me know when the old you has came backk..:)
Ps: exam period is coming ahead, I expect a weight gain of 1-2 kilos in the next two weeks..
PPs: A gain of 3-4 kilos is also expected taking into account my swollen body resulted from staying up late..haha
Ps again: also I might be an anti-social person until 22 June 2009. And I might experience more sensitive feeling during that period so just bear with me for a moment..hahahaha=p *finding excuses*
PPs again: Yaaaayyyyy..I still have an elective subject left so, it means, I can take Chinese as my elective. And believe me, I will take the level that wont bore the hell out of me, but will make me graduate by the end of this year..!!!hahaha=)
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
In His own time, in His own unique ways..
I have just found out that one of my friend had just had her breast operated.
Not cancer, just a lump but still that was a strange thing in your body which in the future might *or might not* grow into a cancer.
I confirmed to another friend what was actually happened.
Grey's Anatomy come to the rescue...=)
A friend gave her grey's anatomy.
What happened was this friend of mine knew something felt so weird with her boobs but only after watching grey's anatomy that she realised thing maybe that bad.
That is actually the episodes where an old lady came to the hospital saying something is wrong with her boobs and this episode just happened to be similar to my friend's case that she went to see a doctor..
So happeningg..!!
God has His own plan, His own ways, His own time.
Human can make thounsands of plans, but none of them can override God's.
This friend of mine for example.
Who wants to have problems like hers??
Noone!!
That was every girls' bad dream. Noone wants to have any lump on her breast.
That will not make a woman Not-woman..at least in my opinion.
But still, it might bring any psychological effect as we live in Indonesia where people's opinion dictates the way we have to behave.
I am amazed..I am truly truly amazed.
God is good. God is amazing.
Who would think that one episode of a drama can save my friend's life??
I guess this might have happened a lot of times but this time it happened in front of me.
I witnessed the goodness of God.
Everything happen in His time...
Im still amazed..No words can describee..
One lesson I got here,
Believe in God..
Have faith in Him and everything is gonna be fine because He has good plan and not a plan of destruction..
Another lessonn......
WATCH GREY'S ANATOMYYY..!!!!!
It's good, people..
And its usefulness is pro..hahaha=p
PS: Dedicated to my friend Valen..
Everything is gonna be fine darl..Jesus loves u..and so do I..=)
Not cancer, just a lump but still that was a strange thing in your body which in the future might *or might not* grow into a cancer.
I confirmed to another friend what was actually happened.
Grey's Anatomy come to the rescue...=)
A friend gave her grey's anatomy.
What happened was this friend of mine knew something felt so weird with her boobs but only after watching grey's anatomy that she realised thing maybe that bad.
That is actually the episodes where an old lady came to the hospital saying something is wrong with her boobs and this episode just happened to be similar to my friend's case that she went to see a doctor..
So happeningg..!!
God has His own plan, His own ways, His own time.
Human can make thounsands of plans, but none of them can override God's.
This friend of mine for example.
Who wants to have problems like hers??
Noone!!
That was every girls' bad dream. Noone wants to have any lump on her breast.
That will not make a woman Not-woman..at least in my opinion.
But still, it might bring any psychological effect as we live in Indonesia where people's opinion dictates the way we have to behave.
I am amazed..I am truly truly amazed.
God is good. God is amazing.
Who would think that one episode of a drama can save my friend's life??
I guess this might have happened a lot of times but this time it happened in front of me.
I witnessed the goodness of God.
Everything happen in His time...
Im still amazed..No words can describee..
One lesson I got here,
Believe in God..
Have faith in Him and everything is gonna be fine because He has good plan and not a plan of destruction..
Another lessonn......
WATCH GREY'S ANATOMYYY..!!!!!
It's good, people..
And its usefulness is pro..hahaha=p
PS: Dedicated to my friend Valen..
Everything is gonna be fine darl..Jesus loves u..and so do I..=)
Friday, May 1, 2009
A journey of faith in Jesus
I want to share a very very interesting reflection I heard from a friend who got this from a priest and she really did contemplate this.
“Jesus is your GPS”
WHAT??!!
Yes people, Jesus is your GPS.
“Jesus is your GPS”
WHAT??!!
Yes people, Jesus is your GPS.
Do you know how GPS work? I bet every people do.
Jesus in some ways guide you throughout your life like GPS do. He will tell you which direction to go, which turn to take, where the round about is, etc. Jesus has the map of your life, all roads and streets you can take.
This friend of mine shared her experience with using a GPS. She knows how to go to the place she usually has her cell group. However, that day, having heard of this reflection, she tried the GPS. What happened was that GPS gave her a different route than the one she usually takes. As she had some spare time she thought she might as well try this different route. This route was a total different from the route she is familiar with but having said that she tried to “have faith” in the GPS and start following the route it gave her. While driving she was contemplating about the GPS being the analogy of her journey of faith.
Even when you are still in the womb, Jesus has calculated your route in coming back to Him. Jesus has given you the best possible way to find Him. He does know you and your limit as a human and therefore He calculated roads and street that will not give you obstacles that you cannot deal with. But what always happen is that you are always get distracted with things on the way. You always made your way out of calculated route and even though the GPS has told you “wrong turn..wrong turnn..” you will make that turn anyway because you found something very interesting on that road. Every GPS will re-calculate your route and so does Jesus. He will re-calculate your journey so that you will get back on track. The re-calculation will sometimes take a long time and sometimes not. It will sometimes also direct you to road that you are not familiar with and maybe through road that you find it difficult to deal with. However, be assured that that road will take you to your destination safe and sound for Lord has promised us plans to prosper and no to harm, and a future filled with hope (Jeremiah 29:11).
In the end, my friend chose to go the way the GPS directed her and she arrived safely at her destination. That is exactly how we should keep our faith in Jesus.
When your GPS starts to annoy you turn it OFF but don’t turn Jesus OFF.. Stay tune in Him always =)
Install a new GPS when your old GPS is broken, but never ever “install” a new Jesus because Jesus never obsolete.
Last but not least, Jesus is not a GPS and a GPS is not Jesus. But have faith in Jesus like you do in your GPS.
VaniGo 020509
Thanks to Tina dan tumpangannya pulang dan cerita2 menarik yang selalu di-share sama saya=)
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