Kata orang cinta itu indah, tapi buta.
Sampai ada yang bilang kalo sudah cinta, tai kucing rasa coklat.
Ada cinta yang berjalan smoothly di jalanan yang berbatu.
Ada cinta yang menemui terlalu banyak hambatan di jalanan yang beraspal.
Saat kekuatan cinta diuji, saat waktu mengejar jawaban cinta.
Saat cinta bukan lagi urusan 2 insan.
Saat integritas cinta mulai dipertanyakan.
Terlebih lagi eksistensi dan kontinuitas nya.
Itulah saat cinta mengenal salah.
Cinta itu indah,
tapi saat indahnya cinta tidak lagi memberi ruang untuk bernafas tapi malah menghimpit dan bikin sesak nafas.
Hingga akhirnya yang bisa keluar hanyalah hembusan nafas penuh lelah dan seember air mata.
Tak ada lagi kata gombal dan rayu yang indah.
Saat itulah cinta mengenal salah.
Salahkah cinta?
bila harus tumbuh di tanah yang harus digemburkan berkali-kali sebelum akhirnya dia bisa tumbuh subur dan berkembang.
Salahkah?
For a friend who is fighting hard for just a sip of happiness,
and a taste of love..
Fight hard, dear!
and fight well..=)
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Saturday, November 14, 2009
The one with her fave author
So,
I have this favourite author of mine. Her name is Clara Ng.
And yes yes yes, she is Indonesian, and a BIG YES she is talented.
She has written quite many worth-reading, worth-buying, worth-rereading books such as Indiana Chronicles *and this blog is named after my fave male char*, Dimsum terakhir (The last Dimsum, rd), Tiga Venus (Three venus(es), rd), and so on.
The only thing that disturbs me is that every single one of her novel that I have read, except Utukki - Sayap Dewa (Utukki - the gods wings), I can find their counterparts.
The obvious one and the one that all chicklit lovers have been talking about is Indiana Chronicles. The story of Indiana was very much like Shopaholic. I know Clara Ng was not plagiarist for the story line was not the same but the idea, the main character's (Indiana, rd) features was very much same except that Indiana was not a shopaholic.
Dimsum Terakhir is very much similar to Danielle Steel's novel. I forgot the title, but Im very very sure it's DS' novel. Both have the story of three sisters who were separated by their own characteristics. They didnt hate each other, they just didnt love each other affectionately. One day, an event happened that unite them together and let them gone through things that strengthen the bond between them. Of course *again* Clara Ng didnt plagiarise for Dimsum Terakhir take the Chinese-Indonesian background while DS *ohhh how i love DS* is westerners.
Next one is the Unreality Show, it was similar to Sidney Sheldon's novel. They both were about someone who has multiple personality disorder and have -interestingly- as much as 8-10 alter egos *scary, eh?*
Of course *again and again* the story arent the same for SS' one is very much detective alike and CN's one is more to comedy.
The most shocking one, because this one I havent even read the counterpart and I just found out only recently, is the Tiga Venus.
The story of Tiga Venus is very unique. It is unreal, because the story was about three very very different women whose souls are just swapped with each others', but very very interesting and CN just wrote it beautifully.
The story also carries a good moral, in a sense that you have to satisfy yourself with what you have because what you see good in others might not do good to you.
I was just browsing on Tullamarine airport's bookstore one day, when my eye caught one of Jane Green's boooks. She is also one of my favourite authors especially for her "Second Chance" *four thumbs up yaaaaayyyy..!!*
The title was read something like life swapping or swapping life or swapped life *too many choices already..haha* or something like that. I was like, "hhhmm...this is interestingg.." as I was just finished my Tiga Venus book.
So, I read the synopsis, and I was soooooo so so so so soooo shocked that I told my housemate straight away. It was the very same idea with Tiga Venus.
On one of her books, Clara Ng declared something like "I dont care if people called me plagiarist, I just am not."
well, she might be she might not be.
I would very much like to met her one day..just to have a chat with her.
That would be interesting, ya reckon???hahaha;p
Anyway,
plagiarist or not, she is one talented author and I just really really enjoy reading her novels.
*except Utukki..sorry Clara Ng..that one was done miserably.=(*
Maybe if one day she can write her own novel from her own inspiration *something like genuinely genuine Clara Ng*, I would like to read that book very much.
until that time arrives, I will just read whatever idea she just took from others and make it into her own novels.
Plagiarism or not..haha.
I have this favourite author of mine. Her name is Clara Ng.
And yes yes yes, she is Indonesian, and a BIG YES she is talented.
She has written quite many worth-reading, worth-buying, worth-rereading books such as Indiana Chronicles *and this blog is named after my fave male char*, Dimsum terakhir (The last Dimsum, rd), Tiga Venus (Three venus(es), rd), and so on.
The only thing that disturbs me is that every single one of her novel that I have read, except Utukki - Sayap Dewa (Utukki - the gods wings), I can find their counterparts.
WARNING!
SPOILER ALERTT..!!!
SPOILER ALERTT..!!!
The obvious one and the one that all chicklit lovers have been talking about is Indiana Chronicles. The story of Indiana was very much like Shopaholic. I know Clara Ng was not plagiarist for the story line was not the same but the idea, the main character's (Indiana, rd) features was very much same except that Indiana was not a shopaholic.
Dimsum Terakhir is very much similar to Danielle Steel's novel. I forgot the title, but Im very very sure it's DS' novel. Both have the story of three sisters who were separated by their own characteristics. They didnt hate each other, they just didnt love each other affectionately. One day, an event happened that unite them together and let them gone through things that strengthen the bond between them. Of course *again* Clara Ng didnt plagiarise for Dimsum Terakhir take the Chinese-Indonesian background while DS *ohhh how i love DS* is westerners.
Next one is the Unreality Show, it was similar to Sidney Sheldon's novel. They both were about someone who has multiple personality disorder and have -interestingly- as much as 8-10 alter egos *scary, eh?*
Of course *again and again* the story arent the same for SS' one is very much detective alike and CN's one is more to comedy.
The most shocking one, because this one I havent even read the counterpart and I just found out only recently, is the Tiga Venus.
The story of Tiga Venus is very unique. It is unreal, because the story was about three very very different women whose souls are just swapped with each others', but very very interesting and CN just wrote it beautifully.
The story also carries a good moral, in a sense that you have to satisfy yourself with what you have because what you see good in others might not do good to you.
I was just browsing on Tullamarine airport's bookstore one day, when my eye caught one of Jane Green's boooks. She is also one of my favourite authors especially for her "Second Chance" *four thumbs up yaaaaayyyy..!!*
The title was read something like life swapping or swapping life or swapped life *too many choices already..haha* or something like that. I was like, "hhhmm...this is interestingg.." as I was just finished my Tiga Venus book.
So, I read the synopsis, and I was soooooo so so so so soooo shocked that I told my housemate straight away. It was the very same idea with Tiga Venus.
On one of her books, Clara Ng declared something like "I dont care if people called me plagiarist, I just am not."
well, she might be she might not be.
I would very much like to met her one day..just to have a chat with her.
That would be interesting, ya reckon???hahaha;p
Anyway,
plagiarist or not, she is one talented author and I just really really enjoy reading her novels.
*except Utukki..sorry Clara Ng..that one was done miserably.=(*
Maybe if one day she can write her own novel from her own inspiration *something like genuinely genuine Clara Ng*, I would like to read that book very much.
until that time arrives, I will just read whatever idea she just took from others and make it into her own novels.
Plagiarism or not..haha.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Under melbourne sky
Sun+day=sunday
A sunny sunday....
I am tanned. It was so hot that my Fredo gelato melted in just few minutes..
I waste few drops of my roche gelato..hahaha.
But that didnt stop us to eat Thai food still. Ying Thai + Fredo = Heaven under melbourne sky.haha.
Saturday night I stayed over at my friend's place just because we, two crazy girls, suddenly decided to watch Christmas Carol.
That was a good cartoon movie except that the "three spirits" was horror!!
even for us. So, definitely that wasnt for children consumption.
Anyway, I am listening to "under adelaide sky"
A good song by Adhitya Sofyan.
I guess, by his name, he is an Indonesian.
His pronounciation was good though.
This song has successfully made me all mellow.
I am having my last two exam papers on 13th and 16th.
After that, I will be an official unemployed fresh graduate.
What am I gonna do next?
Moving to Sydney?
Moving to Singapore?
My parents expect me to stay here in Australia.
However, seeing the fact that no Permanent Residency application are to be processed in the next 2 years, I am now not all convinced that I still want to stay here in Aust.
I want so much to move to Singapore.
I want to live the life I have been dreaming of as a professional.
I cant picture myself living here in Melbourne forever.
I want to settle down in Singapore..
But I cant help with the fact that I am asian, Chinese with Indonesian background where it is the culture that a child's life is parents' dream..>.<
What will become of me?Idk.
but this much I know, I am not yet ready to leave all things that I have here.
At least not now=)
A sunny sunday....
I am tanned. It was so hot that my Fredo gelato melted in just few minutes..
I waste few drops of my roche gelato..hahaha.
But that didnt stop us to eat Thai food still. Ying Thai + Fredo = Heaven under melbourne sky.haha.
Saturday night I stayed over at my friend's place just because we, two crazy girls, suddenly decided to watch Christmas Carol.
That was a good cartoon movie except that the "three spirits" was horror!!
even for us. So, definitely that wasnt for children consumption.
Anyway, I am listening to "under adelaide sky"
A good song by Adhitya Sofyan.
I guess, by his name, he is an Indonesian.
His pronounciation was good though.
This song has successfully made me all mellow.
I am having my last two exam papers on 13th and 16th.
After that, I will be an official unemployed fresh graduate.
What am I gonna do next?
Moving to Sydney?
Moving to Singapore?
My parents expect me to stay here in Australia.
However, seeing the fact that no Permanent Residency application are to be processed in the next 2 years, I am now not all convinced that I still want to stay here in Aust.
I want so much to move to Singapore.
I want to live the life I have been dreaming of as a professional.
I cant picture myself living here in Melbourne forever.
I want to settle down in Singapore..
But I cant help with the fact that I am asian, Chinese with Indonesian background where it is the culture that a child's life is parents' dream..>.<
What will become of me?Idk.
but this much I know, I am not yet ready to leave all things that I have here.
At least not now=)
Friday, November 6, 2009
with God
What would you do if you fell for a person that you know would never fall for you?
What would you do if you wanted a thing that you can never have?
What would you do if you felt like already having what you want but suddenly it was taken away in a blink of eye?
One thing I know.
I will try so hard.....
To just hanging on.
To walk with head straight up.
To walk with poise.
With God;)
What would you do if you wanted a thing that you can never have?
What would you do if you felt like already having what you want but suddenly it was taken away in a blink of eye?
One thing I know.
I will try so hard.....
To just hanging on.
To walk with head straight up.
To walk with poise.
With God;)
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
The one with the thank you and conventional way of thinking
Such a simple phrase "thank you"
As technology is evolving, people grew apart.
Such simple phrase such as "Im sorry", "thank you", "Please" are all pretty much forgotten.
Young parents nowadays are more concerned with what their children are wearing, what extracurricular courses their children are enrolled in so that they will rank better in their class.
Children nowadays are more like parents' trophies.
They often forgot to remind their kids to say thank you even to a maid or a driver working for their family.
Quite so many times I watch kids said something like this to their maid, "pick my socks and put my shoes back in the shoe rack!" and they forgot one simple word "PLEASE" or simply "THANK YOU"
Even my 7yo cousin did that. I was shocked.
This afternoon, as I was catching my breath after swam 4 laps, I noticed a boy around 2 yo playing with his dad.
His dad pretty much look like Jesus in one of Kevjumba's videos "Scaring Jesus". Try to find it on youtube. That video made me laughed so hard;p
Anyway, back to topic, after a while I realize that that boy has an older brother around 4-5 yo joining the swimming course that was still in progress that time.
Few minutes later, I saw the class had been dismissed and he ran to join his little brother and father instantenously *such a nice family they have there;)*
Suddenly I saw this boy *goshh he was sooooo cute..way too cute..If I could, I would ran into him just to pinch his cheek once. the temptation was so big though..LOL* ran back to his swimming teacher and shyly spoke "thank you" *aaww..that was way too cute..I cant help smiling*
When he realised his teacher did not hear, he pulled his teacher's hand and said again "thank you" and maybe because he was too shy, he ran back to his father instantaneously.
The father smiled to the teacher and then petted his head and said to the boy, "good boy" and the father smiled so proudly.
I cant help smiling seeing this happy little family interacting with each other.
Clearly also that the little brother adore his older brother so much.
Another story happened another day, I was going out with two of my friends, a guy and a girl, to watch a movie.
Quite a scary movie that was and my girl friend was so afraid..LOL;p
Finally me and the guy decided to accompany this girl for some times until she calmed down.
So, as we were already in front of the girl's apartment, I suggested that we might as well just go in and have a chat inside.
Then I was shocked when my friend said, "you know im a guy, right?I dont think it is a good idea to have a chat inside. I think we just find some 24 hrs maccas around here."
Maybe my pride didnt allow me to show that I, at that very second, became very respectful towards him.
Such a guy still exist.
That conventional kind of courtesy still exist.
Now, that's amazing, isnt that??;)
Not many people still do that.
Also this does not mean that those who does not do that are actually uneducated or something.
Or maybe I just have too much guy friends that tease me so much that they forgot how to behave in front of me, I honestly dont know..hahaha~~
It is just this few people opened my mind that such words, such a set of thinking are just too beautiful to let them extinct.
As technology is evolving, people grew apart.
Such simple phrase such as "Im sorry", "thank you", "Please" are all pretty much forgotten.
Young parents nowadays are more concerned with what their children are wearing, what extracurricular courses their children are enrolled in so that they will rank better in their class.
Children nowadays are more like parents' trophies.
They often forgot to remind their kids to say thank you even to a maid or a driver working for their family.
Quite so many times I watch kids said something like this to their maid, "pick my socks and put my shoes back in the shoe rack!" and they forgot one simple word "PLEASE" or simply "THANK YOU"
Even my 7yo cousin did that. I was shocked.
This afternoon, as I was catching my breath after swam 4 laps, I noticed a boy around 2 yo playing with his dad.
His dad pretty much look like Jesus in one of Kevjumba's videos "Scaring Jesus". Try to find it on youtube. That video made me laughed so hard;p
Anyway, back to topic, after a while I realize that that boy has an older brother around 4-5 yo joining the swimming course that was still in progress that time.
Few minutes later, I saw the class had been dismissed and he ran to join his little brother and father instantenously *such a nice family they have there;)*
Suddenly I saw this boy *goshh he was sooooo cute..way too cute..If I could, I would ran into him just to pinch his cheek once. the temptation was so big though..LOL* ran back to his swimming teacher and shyly spoke "thank you" *aaww..that was way too cute..I cant help smiling*
When he realised his teacher did not hear, he pulled his teacher's hand and said again "thank you" and maybe because he was too shy, he ran back to his father instantaneously.
The father smiled to the teacher and then petted his head and said to the boy, "good boy" and the father smiled so proudly.
I cant help smiling seeing this happy little family interacting with each other.
Clearly also that the little brother adore his older brother so much.
Another story happened another day, I was going out with two of my friends, a guy and a girl, to watch a movie.
Quite a scary movie that was and my girl friend was so afraid..LOL;p
Finally me and the guy decided to accompany this girl for some times until she calmed down.
So, as we were already in front of the girl's apartment, I suggested that we might as well just go in and have a chat inside.
Then I was shocked when my friend said, "you know im a guy, right?I dont think it is a good idea to have a chat inside. I think we just find some 24 hrs maccas around here."
Maybe my pride didnt allow me to show that I, at that very second, became very respectful towards him.
Such a guy still exist.
That conventional kind of courtesy still exist.
Now, that's amazing, isnt that??;)
Not many people still do that.
Also this does not mean that those who does not do that are actually uneducated or something.
Or maybe I just have too much guy friends that tease me so much that they forgot how to behave in front of me, I honestly dont know..hahaha~~
It is just this few people opened my mind that such words, such a set of thinking are just too beautiful to let them extinct.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Dreams will keep us alive
Ahh..talking about exam..=)
bitter sweet.
I am in swotvac now (which is basically silent week before the official exam period starts).
This will be my very las swotvac, my very last exam.
I am gonna miss uni, miss my old life, as I usually do.=)
but a friend of mine said
"it's ok if you miss exams, but remember, after this after your graduation, you'll be greeted with new, exciting and mysterious life."
Oh man, I already miss lectures and tutes by now.
Lots of things I am missing from my old life.
My high school life. Cheating during tests, skipping classes and get detention, sleeping in class and get scolded while in uni no one cares if you do any of those things.
My uni life. The laughs during lunch break, the rush to classes, the thoughts of skipping classes and go to Chadstone instead.
Goshh..So many beautiful things.
My life is so beautiful with all the mess, the regret, the love, the hatred, the laughter, and the tears.
Only by this time that I know life is irreversible.
Once you go, there is no turning back.
Whatever done is done and you cannot undo.
I dont know what my future brings. All I know is I have dreams and dreams keep me alive.
Those dreams keep me from falling, remind me to stand up and start walking from where I fell.
One thing I am afraid.
I am not afraid of not being success because only I know what is my success.
People's success is not my success.
I am afraid I will lose all my friend. I am afraid of growing up because growing up means leaving behind all your friends who doesnt grow up at the same pace.
My dreams....
London
Paris
Germany
Holland
Prague
PriceWaterhouse Cooper
Singapore
A family of my own
Ballet and Russia (they are a package and inseparable)
Dreams will keep us alive..=)
bitter sweet.
I am in swotvac now (which is basically silent week before the official exam period starts).
This will be my very las swotvac, my very last exam.
I am gonna miss uni, miss my old life, as I usually do.=)
but a friend of mine said
"it's ok if you miss exams, but remember, after this after your graduation, you'll be greeted with new, exciting and mysterious life."
Oh man, I already miss lectures and tutes by now.
Lots of things I am missing from my old life.
My high school life. Cheating during tests, skipping classes and get detention, sleeping in class and get scolded while in uni no one cares if you do any of those things.
My uni life. The laughs during lunch break, the rush to classes, the thoughts of skipping classes and go to Chadstone instead.
Goshh..So many beautiful things.
My life is so beautiful with all the mess, the regret, the love, the hatred, the laughter, and the tears.
Only by this time that I know life is irreversible.
Once you go, there is no turning back.
Whatever done is done and you cannot undo.
I dont know what my future brings. All I know is I have dreams and dreams keep me alive.
Those dreams keep me from falling, remind me to stand up and start walking from where I fell.
One thing I am afraid.
I am not afraid of not being success because only I know what is my success.
People's success is not my success.
I am afraid I will lose all my friend. I am afraid of growing up because growing up means leaving behind all your friends who doesnt grow up at the same pace.
My dreams....
London
Paris
Germany
Holland
Prague
PriceWaterhouse Cooper
Singapore
A family of my own
Ballet and Russia (they are a package and inseparable)
Dreams will keep us alive..=)
Women, be smart, beware!!!
So, that day, I was sitting next to a friend of mine. She is cute *fyi, no, Im not a lesbian*, with around 155cm height and petite kind of posture. Long story short, she is pretty. Let's just call her J.
There was a guy, actually a friend of mine also but I'll be happy to pretend that I dont know him *you'll find out why later on*, sitting in front of her. Suddenly when people in the room start to make some noise, he took his Blackberry out, held it behind the back of the person next to him, with the camera facing my friend, and guess what???!!!
I HEARD THE SHUTTER OF HIS BLACKBERRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was like "WTH!!!!"
I was stunned. Literally stunned. For few seconds I kept staring at his phone and trying to digest what had just happened.
He was looking ahead, not turning around, like pretending to act normally.
When all of a sudden, he turned around and saw me staring at his BB speechlessly, he started to get nervous.
He stuttered saying "no, nnggg, no, hhmm.. it was -- it wass his.......hhmmm....*while randomly pointing at the guy next to him*" and then he just gave up explaining what he just did.
At that time I still had not recovered from my shock and started to stare at him and his BB.
I was like "AHAA!!dudee!!you're so busted!!!!" but instead I was still so speechless.
I couldnt help to lol only I didnt because that would be awkward. People will start to question my sanity instead of his.haha.
So then, few minutes after, I told another guy who is a close friend of mine.
I told him what this sicko guy had just did to J and my friend, let's call him S, told me "as if you dont know that he likes to watch-slash-look-slash-staring at pretty girls."
I was like "wtfh!!!For goodness sake!!Blah!"
I mean, who doesnt??
If you are a guy then maybe when you look at a pretty girl you might start admiring or might be fantasizing of ohh-God-knows-what.
If you are a girl, hey!!admit it you will also stare at her admiring her beauty and will start to see how she did her eyes, her cheek, her hair blah blah.
But no sensible person will do what he did!!
Secretly taking photos of other people. Goshh.. He is a PhD student *if Im not mistaken* for crying out loud but he did something so low that I dont think even a kindergarten student will do.
I didnt tell J of what happened that day because I think she might freak out.
So, until today she didnt know that kind of thing even happened.
And I, honestly, am still thinking that she is better off not knowing.
Sooo......
Women, be smart!
beware!!
crazy guys are all around you!!;p
ps: even if you are not pretty, beware!!;p
There was a guy, actually a friend of mine also but I'll be happy to pretend that I dont know him *you'll find out why later on*, sitting in front of her. Suddenly when people in the room start to make some noise, he took his Blackberry out, held it behind the back of the person next to him, with the camera facing my friend, and guess what???!!!
I HEARD THE SHUTTER OF HIS BLACKBERRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was like "WTH!!!!"
I was stunned. Literally stunned. For few seconds I kept staring at his phone and trying to digest what had just happened.
He was looking ahead, not turning around, like pretending to act normally.
When all of a sudden, he turned around and saw me staring at his BB speechlessly, he started to get nervous.
He stuttered saying "no, nnggg, no, hhmm.. it was -- it wass his.......hhmmm....*while randomly pointing at the guy next to him*" and then he just gave up explaining what he just did.
At that time I still had not recovered from my shock and started to stare at him and his BB.
I was like "AHAA!!dudee!!you're so busted!!!!" but instead I was still so speechless.
I couldnt help to lol only I didnt because that would be awkward. People will start to question my sanity instead of his.haha.
So then, few minutes after, I told another guy who is a close friend of mine.
I told him what this sicko guy had just did to J and my friend, let's call him S, told me "as if you dont know that he likes to watch-slash-look-slash-staring at pretty girls."
I was like "wtfh!!!For goodness sake!!Blah!"
I mean, who doesnt??
If you are a guy then maybe when you look at a pretty girl you might start admiring or might be fantasizing of ohh-God-knows-what.
If you are a girl, hey!!admit it you will also stare at her admiring her beauty and will start to see how she did her eyes, her cheek, her hair blah blah.
But no sensible person will do what he did!!
Secretly taking photos of other people. Goshh.. He is a PhD student *if Im not mistaken* for crying out loud but he did something so low that I dont think even a kindergarten student will do.
I didnt tell J of what happened that day because I think she might freak out.
So, until today she didnt know that kind of thing even happened.
And I, honestly, am still thinking that she is better off not knowing.
Sooo......
Women, be smart!
beware!!
crazy guys are all around you!!;p
ps: even if you are not pretty, beware!!;p
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