The Never Ending Promotion

So,
as I was drinking my Teh Kotak I realized one thing.
See the difference??
The new package is saying '50% free' and this has been going on for years and years. I remember I saw this the first time when I was still in high school.
The first time this promotional package came out, they were celebrating something anniversary.
Now that it's been going on for few years, they took out the anniversary part, but they still put 50% free.

Hmm..~~
Marketing fellas, what's going on here??

I Dont Have The Heart

As days goes by, 

my time to leave Melbourne comes closer.

The willingness to leave and start a life back in Indonesia comes from me alone.

But I dare say it out loud,

'I don't have the heart to leave'

Melbourne has become my second home, the house Im living in feels like home.

2 years memories of good things and bad things.

I cried over simple things now.

I cried over the sand bear that me and my friend made on Chelsea Beach.

I cried over my cell group's togetherness.

I cried over this house. I cant imagine the time I have to say, 'Bye bye house..'

I will miss Melbourne.

I will miss the people inside.

I will miss those angers over late trains. 

I will miss those times running for buses. 

Maybe I will also miss the strong windy days.

Maybe I will miss having the electric blanket under my fitted sheet during winter.

Maybe I will miss the taste of Nutella. 

Everything wont be same ever again.

But one thing I know, God will guide me.

I put my everything on God. 

I dont know what to do, but God knows, so I'll let HIM lead me.

That's the only assurance I have over my uncertain life.

One Summer Fling

So, 

I watched a lot of movies of dramas which love story started with one summer fling.

Hey, my summer has turned into autumn, and soon into winter..

When will this story be my winter sonata???

HAHAHAHA.. *cheezyyy.... -.-*

Huhuyy~~

Cant be helped, can I?? :P

HAIIZZ..~~

This one has NO CURE loorr.. 

What winter sonata, what summer fling..aiyoohh crazy me!! :(

What I Will Miss

I was on 630 bus to Monash Uni. When it stopped at Huntingdale Station a guy *hottie alert!!:P* hop on the bus and I saw he was walking limply.

He wore a thong on his right leg and as for the left, he carried the thong.

I saw his left leg was wounded on the part where it was in contact with the thongs, that was why he carried the thong by hand.

I saw the tissue he used to absorb his blood looked dodgy already.

So, I asked if he needed some more tissue. Doing good deed while flirting *one kill two birds. LOL:D*

Then he gave me back the rest of my tissue, said thank you, and smiled at me *wwwaaaaa~~~..*

Other time, I fell because I stepped on something. This happened at QV.

One guy came up and asked whether I was ok and then he picked up the thing that caused me to fall and threw it away.

*SIGHHH...*

It got me thinking, now that Im leaving this country, I wont be able to experience those kind of feeling ever again.

In Indonesia, if you do that to some strangers, let alone thanking you, not giving you skeptic look is counted good enough.

I will miss at least this aspect of Australia where people are friends with people.

Racism is something that we cant avoid when living in a multicultural country. 

Putting away the racism, I will miss the warm-hearted Aussies...

Who's Afraid of The Big Bad Wolf

So, 

All of a sudden a tune was playing in my memory.

I was thinking for some times what and why is this song keep playing inside my head.

Suddenly I remember!! It is a disney song that won me my very first trophy ever.

I was much younger. I still remember how proud I am to bring that trophy home although that was only for the 3rd winner.

Aaahhh..~~ reminiscing childhood always makes me happy..;)

la vie nouvelle

So, 

planning to go back for good doesnt seem as frightening as before.

Besties are going with me to Jakarta. To be exact we have plan to go to Jakarta.

Hopefully everything will be realised. 

Im very excited to go back for good. 

A bit hard to leave my friends here, but for a better future I have to go back and I can barely wait.

July seems so long with all this excitement. 

I might not be here when my best friend come and visit Melbourne for a week. 

I might not be here to hang out with him. 

One thing Im sure AKU BISA DICULIK LAGI SETIAP SAAT DI INDOOO.....;P

Im damn excited...

If this few days I cant sleep thinking of my job hunting, now I cant sleep thinking how much fun I will have back in Indo..:)

The Day I Made My Big Decision

So,
Ive made the decision.
The biggest decision in my life so far.
I'll be going back for good.
This seems to be the answer to all my prayers.

I prayed Novena when I appealed for my 6.5 speaking result.
I prayed when I sit the test last February so that if God's plan were for me to stay in Melbourne so be it 7 for speaking and writing. They were not.
I prayed when I was interviewed for CKM in fact as you know, I got the news that I wasnt accepted.
I prayed for the TR process to be smooth when in fact until now I have no news from DIMIA.
Now, my family also has some issues.

Maybe it was not that my prayers werent answered.
Maybe they were answered but in a way that I dont expect.
Maybe while I was waiting for a YES instead God gave me a NO.

After all the thinking and inquiring were done, I chose to leave Melbourne.
Maybe not for ever since I might be back for a postgraduate degree in 3-4 years maybe less.
Who knows....
All I know is that after I have the gut to tell people that I've decided to go back for good I feel like a ton of burden has just been lifted from my shoulders.
Maybe this is not all.
Maybe there will be more than just a decision to leave Melbourne.
Maybe far more than that, maybe it will cost me something else that I have been waiting for so long.
Maybe it will cost me dearly.
But, as for now, the decision is made.
As for when, only God knows..;)