My graduation day

Today is my graduation dayyy..
lalala~~
say bye to papers and essays..
say hi to a new world;p

So,
tomorrow my parents will come to attend my graduation.
I bet this is the only time first born-ers feel more loved than their siblings;p

As I graduated already, I wanted to change my bedroom ambience.
So I bought a new desk from IKEA *yess!!IKEA..!!* and just finished assembled it.
then vacuumed the whole house and moped it as well just because tomorrow my parents are coming..hahahaha~~
And now I keep sneezing!!I guess because of the dust.

Anyway, nothing special happened this week, so, nothing to update.
Neither have I been feeling melancholic lately, so really, nothing to update..haha;p

My parents and brother are coming tomorrow.
My graduation will be this Thursday.


I feel blessed..;)

Sunday morning

Sunday morning rain is falling yeah yeaaahhh..

except that it isnt in Melbourne.

I have friends, and I mean close friends, who likes to cancel everything, from hanging out, watching movie to a day trip, in the last minute. I mean very very last minute. Trip on 10am they cancel on 930am. WTH!!
I wonder, do they even feel the slightest feel of guilt??do they?? DO THEY??!!
if they say they do, i doubt it.
If I say, we cancel the trip just because you said you are not going, how would they feel I wonder.
Will they feel happy??happy that we cancel the trip so they dont miss out on something??
People oh people, why art thou so indecisive??

Nonetheless, the good news is my family's visa to Australia have been granted.
So, they will attend my grad for sure.
So now I have to arrange the schedule for them because apparently we have way too many family friends here in Melbourne that we have to visit each one of them.
*Sighh*

Anyway, enjoy your Sunday everyone.

I graduated, thank you

Have just got my result today.
Good new, I passed everything which makes me an official B.Com.
Thank God for this wonderful outcome after every unfortunate things that have happened lately.

3 years have gone.
That long was my journey to get an additional bit behind my name.
I've been through ups and downs.
So many tears I have cried for this.
12 seasons in Melbourne.
And now, let me present.......

Maria Teresa Vania Sumargo, B.Com.

However, apparently there are 2 of my friends who didnt pass.
I havent called them. I only know this info from a *quite* reliable source.
A birdie told me;p
Maybe I will call them by tomorrow morning. See how everything goes.
Maybe they can apply for "Near Pass"
That's Monash Uni giving us a we-wont-rip-more-of-your-money-because-this-is-your-last-subject chance.

what is interesting is that, I was telling another friend about this.
I explained to her that Monash has this we-wont-rip-more-of-your-money-because-this-is-your-last-subject chance called Near Pass.
I explained that student who got 45-49 can apply for it *of course because 50 is a pass*
She said, "No!!it's only for 48 and 49 student because Miss X should had graduated together with me on 2007 only that she got 47, applied for NP and got rejected. So, Miss X graduated on the next batch"
I was thinking wow wow wowww...I am living in a society where you carry bad and shameful things to your grave. It stick to you like flies/rat glue.
eeewwwwww........~~
haha -.-"
Im not saying that this friend of mine is a bad girl.
I can totally understand her, because that's just the way this society is working.
What a cruel society I am living in.
haizzzz........~~

Anyway, let me present here once again.....

Maria Teresa Vania Sumargo, B.Com
First born of Mr and Mrs Sudarto Sumargo

Excuse mua????doesnt that look like the printing on wedding invitation??
Holy crap!!;p
SO WRONGGGGG!!!!
det dotttttttttttttttttt!!!~~
Ciaoo..

The one with not being a doctor

Why do I not want to be a doctor??

When I was in high school, I attended science class.
I am *am, not was* v v interested in science especially in human biology besides chemistry.
But why did I not choose to be a doctor instead??

Other things being equal, I prefer cooking than baking.
Now, what's the connection??
You'll see;p

Being a doctor is like baking cakes.
Once you put the dough in the oven that's it.
Whatever you did wrong, you cannot rectify.
Same with being a doctor.
Once you give wrong medication, it is hard to rectify.
If it was only an aspirin prescription it's OK. *im sure aspirin doesnt need prescription;p*
What if the wrong medication only make the real illness worse.
Take one case.

A lady in her mid 60s keep coughing, and heavy breath.
Her children brought her to a pulmonologist. He is titled professor in pulmonologist. *how cool does that sound?*
The doctor said that was TB.

Tuberculosis (TB) is a common and often deadly infectious disease caused by mycobacteria, usually Mycobacterium tuberculosis in humans.Tuberculosis usually attacks the lungs but can also affect other parts of the body.
(Source: Wikipedia)

He gave this lady a prescription for TB but instead of getting better, the coughing was getting worse.
Her children decided to bring this poor lady to Singapore.
Yes, Singapore;p
It turned out it was a lung cancer.
It was in early stage but the size of the cyst (when you have cancer you also have cyst, eh?anyone to confirm?) was abnormal.
An early stage of lung cancer would not cause that big of a cyst.
Further investigation by the Singapore doctor said that the TB prescription had caused the cyst to become that big.
Ouch!!

That was a bad case turns good.
Bad case turns worse??there is!!
Once there was an old gentleman hospitalised and given wrong medication that resulted in death.
The medication pouch was labelled 8, which means it's for patient in bed number 8, but he was in bed number 9.
Ouch ouch!!

So, why not a doctor??
Too big of a responsibility.
Playing too close to someone's life.
Scared me even before I enrolled in medicine faculty hahaha~~

And, why cooking??
When you forgot to put salt or whatever.
Simply put back the dish on the wok, put some salt, toss for a while, put back on the plate.
Ready to serve.
No fuss!!;p

Now you know why I dont want to be a doctor, why I hate baking, why I love cooking...

Dearest Blackberry..

I just lost my dearest Blackberry phone.
I still cant believe it. It's not that I cant live without that.
I used to be that way, but now Im sure I can. v v sure.
It's just that the moment that he stole my phone still keep playing itself inside my head like some sort of short movie.

My friend told me to let it go.
Yes, I can. It's not about the phone per se, nor the money.
As a matter of fact, my dad already asked me whether I want a new one.
But I still cant think of having another BB.
Call me mellow, call me melancholic, but I am.

It's about the memories inside.
Too many photos, and blog drafts, and other unimportant details.
No important details such as my bank account or whatever.
Too many memories I've had together with the phone.
It had been my friend since last year. It has reconnect me with friends.
It had helped me tons.
I already miss it...T.T

And there are too many ifs.
If I didnt go to city
If I went back up and took my cardigan
If I didnt check fb
If I went out from my friend's place earlier
If only I werent such an fb-whore
If...
If....
If.....
If......
If.......
If.........
See??
Way too many..

And my mom doesnt seem to care at all.
When I told my dad, his response was "So what now?? just let it go. I'll buy you a new one"
When I told my mom, her response was, "Dont forget to block your pin, and report it to BB show room. are you ok?"
My mom supposedly able to do more of sweet-talking than my dad.
So I told her, "physically Im ok, but mentally Im still shocked, regretful and so on so on"
Her response to that was, "Yeah, but dont forget to block your pin"
Is that all you can say mom???
Even dad is able to do more sweet-talking.



Anw, bye my dearest Blackberry
Hope you find a good new user that take care of you carefully.
You've been a good friend of mine.
You were the only one who was there when I was so down during all this semester.
Miss you heaps.

Papa dan Putri Kecilnya

Biasanya, bagi seorang anak perempuan yang sudah dewasa, yang sedang bekerja diperantauan, yang ikut suaminya merantau di luar kota atau luar negeri, yang sedang bersekolah atau kuliah jauh dari kedua orang tuanya.....
Akan sering merasa kangen sekali dengan Mamanya.
Lalu bagaimana dengan Papa?
Mungkin karena Mama lebih sering menelepon untuk menanyakan keadaanmu setiap hari,
tapi tahukah kamu, jika ternyata Papa-lah yang mengingatkan Mama untuk menelponmu?

Mungkin dulu sewaktu kamu kecil, Mama-lah yang lebih sering mengajakmu bercerita atau berdongeng,
tapi tahukah kamu, bahwa sepulang Papa bekerja dan dengan wajah lelah Papa selalu menanyakan pada Mama tentang kabarmu dan apa yang kau lakukan seharian?

Pada saat dirimu masih seorang anak perempuan kecil......
Papa biasanya mengajari putri kecilnya naik sepeda.
Dan setelah Papa mengganggapmu bisa, Papa akan melepaskan roda bantu di sepedamu...
Kemudian Mama bilang : "Jangan dulu Papa, jangan dilepas dulu roda bantunya" ,
Mama takut putri manisnya terjatuh lalu terluka....
Tapi sadarkah kamu?
Bahwa Papa dengan yakin akan membiarkanmu, menatapmu, dan menjagamu mengayuh sepeda dengan seksama karena dia tahu putri kecilnya PASTI BISA.

Pada saat kamu menangis merengek meminta boneka atau mainan yang baru, Mama menatapmu iba.
Tetapi Papa akan mengatakan dengan tegas : "Boleh, kita beli nanti, tapi tidak sekarang"
Tahukah kamu, Papa melakukan itu karena Papa tidak ingin kamu menjadi anak yang manja dengan semua tuntutan yang selalu dapat dipenuhi?

Saat kamu sakit pilek, Papa yang terlalu khawatir sampai kadang sedikit membentak dengan berkata :
"Sudah di bilang! kamu jangan minum air dingin!".
Berbeda dengan Mama yang memperhatikan dan menasihatimu dengan lembut.
Ketahuilah, saat itu Papa benar-benar mengkhawatirkan keadaanmu.

Ketika kamu sudah beranjak remaja....
Kamu mulai menuntut pada Papa untuk dapat izin keluar malam, dan Papa bersikap tegas dan mengatakan: "Tidak boleh!".
Tahukah kamu, bahwa Papa melakukan itu untuk menjagamu?
Karena bagi Papa, kamu adalah sesuatu yang sangat - sangat luar biasa berharga..

Setelah itu kamu marah pada Papa, dan masuk ke kamar sambil membanting pintu...
Dan yang datang mengetok pintu dan membujukmu agar tidak marah adalah Mama....
Tahukah kamu, bahwa saat itu Papa memejamkan matanya dan menahan gejolak dalam batinnya,
Bahwa Papa sangat ingin mengikuti keinginanmu, Tapi lagi-lagi dia HARUS menjagamu?

Ketika saat seorang cowok mulai sering menelponmu, atau bahkan datang ke rumah untuk menemuimu, Papa akan memasang wajah paling cool sedunia.... :')
Papa sesekali menguping atau mengintip saat kamu sedang ngobrol berdua di ruang tamu..
Sadarkah kamu, kalau hati Papa merasa cemburu?

Saat kamu mulai lebih dipercaya, dan Papa melonggarkan sedikit peraturan untuk keluar rumah untukmu, kamu akan memaksa untuk melanggar jam malamnya.
Maka yang dilakukan Papa adalah duduk di ruang tamu, dan menunggumu pulang dengan hati yang sangat khawatir...
Dan setelah perasaan khawatir itu berlarut - larut...
Ketika melihat putri kecilnya pulang larut malam hati Papa akan mengeras dan Papa memarahimu.. .
Sadarkah kamu, bahwa ini karena hal yang di sangat ditakuti Papa akan segera datang?
"Bahwa putri kecilnya akan segera pergi meninggalkan Papa"

Setelah lulus SMA, Papa akan sedikit memaksamu untuk menjadi seorang Dokter atau Insinyur.
Ketahuilah, bahwa seluruh paksaan yang dilakukan Papa itu semata - mata hanya karena memikirkan masa depanmu nanti...
Tapi toh Papa tetap tersenyum dan mendukungmu saat pilihanmu tidak sesuai dengan keinginan Papa

Ketika kamu menjadi gadis dewasa...
Dan kamu harus pergi kuliah dikota lain...
Papa harus melepasmu di bandara.
Tahukah kamu bahwa badan Papa terasa kaku untuk memelukmu?
Papa hanya tersenyum sambil memberi nasehat ini - itu, dan menyuruhmu untuk berhati-hati. .
Padahal Papa ingin sekali menangis seperti Mama dan memelukmu erat-erat.
Yang Papa lakukan hanya menghapus sedikit air mata di sudut matanya, dan menepuk pundakmu berkata "Jaga dirimu baik-baik ya sayang".
Papa melakukan itu semua agar kamu KUAT...kuat untuk pergi dan menjadi dewasa.

Disaat kamu butuh uang untuk membiayai uang semester dan kehidupanmu, orang pertama yang mengerutkan kening adalah Papa.
Papa pasti berusaha keras mencari jalan agar anaknya bisa merasa sama dengan teman-temannya yang lain

Ketika permintaanmu bukan lagi sekedar meminta boneka baru, dan Papa tahu ia tidak bisa memberikan yang kamu inginkan...
Kata-kata yang keluar dari mulut Papa adalah : "Tidak.... Tidak bisa!"
Padahal dalam batin Papa, Ia sangat ingin mengatakan "Iya sayang, nanti Papa belikan untukmu".
Tahukah kamu bahwa pada saat itu Papa merasa gagal membuat anaknya tersenyum?

Saatnya kamu diwisuda sebagai seorang sarjana.
Papa adalah orang pertama yang berdiri dan memberi tepuk tangan untukmu.
Papa akan tersenyum dengan bangga dan puas melihat "putri kecilnya yang tidak manja berhasil tumbuh dewasa, dan telah menjadi seseorang"

Sampai saat seorang teman Lelakimu datang ke rumah dan meminta izin pada Papa untuk mengambilmu darinya.
Papa akan sangat berhati-hati memberikan izin..
Karena Papa tahu.....
Bahwa lelaki itulah yang akan menggantikan posisinya nanti.

Dan akhirnya....

Saat Papa melihatmu duduk di Panggung Pelaminan bersama seseorang Lelaki yang di anggapnya pantas menggantikannya, Papa pun tersenyum bahagia....
Apakah kamu mengetahui, di hari yang bahagia itu Papa pergi kebelakang panggung sebentar, dan menangis?

Papa menangis karena papa sangat berbahagia, kemudian Papa berdoa....
Dalam lirih doanya kepada Tuhan, Papa berkata: "Ya Allah tugasku telah selesai dengan baik...
Putri kecilku yang lucu dan kucintai telah menjadi wanita yang cantik....
Bahagiakanlah ia bersama suaminya..."

Setelah itu Papa hanya bisa menunggu kedatanganmu bersama cucu-cucunya yang sesekali datang untuk menjenguk...
Dengan rambut yang telah dan semakin memutih...
Dan badan serta lengan yang tak lagi kuat untuk menjagamu dari bahaya....
Papa telah menyelesaikan tugasnya....

Papa, Ayah, Bapak, atau Abah kita...
Adalah sosok yang harus selalu terlihat kuat...
Bahkan ketika dia tidak kuat untuk tidak menangis...
Dia harus terlihat tegas bahkan saat dia ingin memanjakanmu. .
Dan dia adalah yang orang pertama yang selalu yakin bahwa "KAMU BISA" dalam segala hal..