My Easter

So,
I was departing on 630 bus towards Monash University last Monday.
It was as usual, greeting the driver, validate ticket and sitting down.
But suddenly when one passenger went off, the driver came to me asking, "have I greeted you Happy Easter?"
I said I thought so.
Then he handed me $2 coin and said "This is for you because this year I forgot to buy easter chocolate"
Wowww..he instantly made my day...;)
It's not because it's $2, not that it can buy me something these days.
Not because it came from a bus driver, not that I think I will meet him again now that I think Im about to go back for good.
But because it's from someone's heart.
Suddenly my heart filled with warmth. It felt great..;)

But now, this morning, after yesterday's fun to Phillip Island.
I received a text message from a friend saying "Van, let us find another work. Our friend L has just accepted to that job"
Fyi, the three of us was interviewed for the same job.
What makes me angry is not the fact that my friend got the job.
For that Im sure Lord has His own plan for me.
Only the company didnt give equal opportunity for us to compete.

1st friend was interviewed in a very casual manner. No fuss, no muss.

2nd was me. The interviewer asked me what's the different between financial accounting and management accounting. I answered management accounting mainly managing how the company could run more efficiently while financial accounting dealing with what has happened.
She said my answer was wrong and that I didnt understand a single thing about financial accounting and management accounting.
She said the answer should be that financial accounting is dealing with the past of the company and management accounting dealing with the future of the company.
hhmm....fine.whatever.

3rd friend was the one who got accepted.
And only this morning that I found out that she didnt even interviewed.
She was called to come to the office, and talked to the interviewer while standing (which proves how casual it was) and on the spot she was asked for a trial.
And she got accepted.

So what actually Lord's plan is??
For me to go back for good?
or whatt?????!!

I feel like crying now because my future seems to be slipping away from my hand.
I dont know what to do and where to go.
I dont know who I am anymore.
And I feel plainly STUPID!!

One Final Call

So,
Few days ago my mom called me and asked me what I wanted to do with my life?
My life??? I f*cking dont know!!
Everything seems so uncertain these days after graduation.
I complained a lot during uni life.
Thought I wont complain any longer after that, but here I am and complaining even worse.
More over, now Im not the one who is complaining.
My mom seems to complain a lot about me.
Saying Im so slow, people alwas get everything first before me.

So, there was one fine day that my mom called me and said one of my friend IC was offered a job at a company but unfortunately, his visa does not allow him to work in Australia.
So, what happened?
He didnt get the job.
You know what my mom suggested me to do?
Come to him and ask him which company that was.
It got me thinking, so my mom wanted me to come to my friend saying, "dude, since you didnt get the job let me have it"
Isnt it rude???!!
What's in her head??!!

Other days she would call me and ask me how's my job hunting and scolded me for not getting a job quickly.
She kept asking me has my housemate who graduate at the same time with me got a job?
I told her the truth that she hasnt.
I was wondering....When I was a kid I used to compare my mom to my friend's and she told me to just swallow it down and if Im not satisfied with her I can be other people's daughter.
So, what happened if I turn the situation around? What if I told her to just be other people's (who's got a job) mom.
Anyway, after telling her the truth that my housemate hasnt got a job herself, I thought she would stop scolding me and just realised that it is now VERY VERY VERY VERY hard to find a job in this f*cking country.
(sorry about those rather inappropriate words. Im getting tired with this job hunting phase of my life that seems so hard)
In fact, she kept scolding me saying why others have got a job before I do.
Just who the hell do you mean with 'others', mom??
I told you so many times that none of my friends has got a job..
Oh my dear God!!!

The last time she called me, she asked me to set a date for myself that if at which I havent got a job I have to go back for good.
I can either move to another country *and she literally said didnt care which country. It might as well be South Africa taming a wild cheetah* or go back to Indonesia.
She asked roughly when this date will be.
I said in a year because that's how I see my friend. Even the smartest in school who graduated on 2008 found a job just late last year.
She screamed in horror saying that one year was simply UNACCEPTABLE giving me the reason that company who would hire me would wonder why I havent got a job within one year.
The reason sounded pretty acceptable to me.
So, I fought no further.

Last Wednesday I had two interviews. In the morning was for the full time, in the evening was for the part time.
I texted her in the morning before I went to the interview.
She texted me back wishing me good luck and said that she would keep praying for me.
That was fine.
Until in the evening, after my 2nd interview, I texted her telling her that I got accepted into the part time job for sure and that it would start in May.
She replied "OK, then find another job to do in April"
She didnt even congratulate me.
FINE!!!
Just f*ck off!!
I wont call you again even if you ask me to so that you wont have the chance to ruin my day, mom!!!
Not until I have good news for you which means I've got myself a full time job.

I thought Ive gone past those puberty days when hormones ruled me and caused me to argue with my mom a lot.
This job hunting phase is starting to get to my nerve.
And until now Im still thinking what if until August (the time that my mom set for me without even asking me) I havent got myself a job and my mom wants me back to Indonesia?
What am I gonna do there???
I hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know today is Easter, and I supposed to forgive my mom.
I love God. I love my family.
I just really hate my life and myself!!!

Be smart, think smart, do smart??google it!!

So, 

What would you do if you already knew the name of a shop and wanted to find out its address??

I asked two friends about this and they said let google do its job and so I told my friend.

Not long after, came another question. What was the suburb of the shop??

AArrggghhhh..~~

Just f*cking google itt!!!!!!!!

It's for you to know and for Google to find out! Nice and easy, dude!!

Capek deh nontok wedok menye2 gak iso opo2!!!

About giving up..

I just realised how hard it is to look for a job.
Everytime I found a new way to get a job seems like doors are closing up on me.
Lord please help me.
Im about to give up here..:(
On the other hands I dont want to make my parents disappointed.
What should I do?

For One More Day

Lord, if you see them in heaven, tell them how much I love them and how much I miss them.

How much I would like to see them one more day, see one more smile, get one more pat in my back.

Tell bro that his death wasnt in vain. See now his little brother has gotten himself a master degree. See now I have gotten myself a bachelor degree.

Tell him I wanted to hear his laugh just one more time.

Tell gramps how much this shattered family needs him.

Tell them how much I wanted to hug them tightly right now at this very moment.

Lord, I pray for You to forgive their sins.

I pray for them to see me in my dream and give me just one more smile to give me the courage I need.

Amen.

Backstreets Boys is Back!!

So,

I watched backstreet boys 'this is us' concert tour 2010 last Friday.

I underestimate them a little bit at first.

I even thought a thousand times before buying the ticket. 

I even forgot the date. Thanks to my friend Adriani who reminded me of the concert.

I didnt even know where the concert was.

But t'was awesommmeeee!!!

If I could, I would go for another round.

The sound system was fantastic.

They used on-stage DJ so the music arrangement is a bit different from recorded version, only so much better..

OHMIGODDDDDDDDD.....I would give everything to go for another round:p

Even though they are 30ish now, they still can dance...............................and Nick Carter is still as HOT!!!kyaaaaaaa~~~... and Howie and AJ are hotter while Brian is so-so:p

Funny thing, if I heard it right I spotted 1 mistake Nick did. 

When he sang As Long As You Love Me he sang "cant get you out of my heart" he didnt really finish the word 'heart' as soon as he realised it was wrong he changed to "yeeeee..."

I just realised it when I re-watch the video I recorded..;p

Apart from that funny mistake the show was WWWWWOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW..~~~

I want moreee!!!=(

*Show me the meaning of being lonelyyyyy...*

Speaking of which, when will Westlife come to Melb???!!!

Dream Destroyer

So, 

There is a girl who has this one simple dream.

She wants her kids to know their great-grandparents, know their real hometown, know how good it feels to grow up in a countryside, how peaceful it is to live in a village.

She wants them to know her real hometown. Where she spent her holidays chasing chickens, going to the beach building sand castle, seeing padi fields everywhere she went. 

But a bunch of stupid and greedy people have just destroyed her dream.

Starting with her greedy auntie who married her uncle knowing that he is the only son in the family, hoping she would inherit all the wealth.

Just like any other Chinese family. Like any other movies storyline, the greedy auntie starts trying to claim what she deemed to be hers, as soon as the head of the family passed away.

Starting from selling furnitures, trying to sell off houses, and brainwashed her kids to hate the kids' dad's family.

Until one day this girl's family members are so angry that they said they are more of a family without the greedy auntie and her family because her greediness has just ruined everything.

And history has just repeat itself when the greedy auntie's son has a girlfriend who is also greedy, who hopes one day she can marry him and get all his inheritance.

People outside are asking, why the hell this greedy auntie loves her son's girlfriend so much while it is very obvious to outsiders that she is very very greedy.

Why oh why......
Do you know why???

Yesssssss....It is because the greedy auntie sees herself in this f*cking ugly, greedy and kaypoh girl.

The greedy auntie cant help remembering the time when she flied to Europe to chase her boyfriend, and made herself pregnant so that anybody cant help but let them get married.

Aaahhh..life oh life~~

This greedy auntie is so dominating in her marriage that she (un)consciously pushed her husband to the edge, made her husband a gambler, drunk, and in the end blamed her husband for acting that way..

WWWOoooooOoOOwwWWW......~~

Greedy auntie turns out to be very smart, doesnt sheeee???!!

By simply made herself pregnant supported by her greediness she can destroy a very big family, and a girl's simple dream.

AAhhaaaa....!!

Now you know what to do if you want to catch a rich guy and marry her so that you can get yourself big big shining inheritance....;p