Dear God

Dear God, the only thing I ask of You
Is to hold them when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away..

Ps: yes I'm gonna miss you.
I already miss you now.
I hate to say gpodbye but I, apparently, have to.
And yes, in case you don't know, I'm sad.
V v sad.

The Test That Sets The Standard

So,
In this world, people know two most famous english tests.
I wont say any name, but Im sure you know them.

Few days ago when I took preparation class for one of the tests, the person who helped me told me that so long ago *and he regretted it that much* he once helped few students who are willing to pay $2000 (Neither will I say what currency it was in because I didnt ask, so basically idk;p) to pay for the 'version zero' question sheet.
Say, my test was for tomorrow, then tonight I would get the test for that amount of money.
However, on the very day of the test, you can barely cheat.
All dodgy things must be prepared the night before.

Only this afternoon that people have found a way to cheat on the other test.
Someone I and my friend know took the test.
Suddenly my friend received a message from this particular candidate and asking what answer shall he choose *BIG hint: the questions were asking about grammar*
This test taker could even call my friend albeit could only whisper.

"The Test That Sets The Standard"
Can we still believe in this motto??
Can we still believe in the standard that those tests are setting?
To be honest I cant.
One thing that makes me more disappointed is that in order for me to be able to get a job,to fulfill my dream, I have to take one of those test *can be easily guessed which one it is;p*
I have taken the test thrice.

If only I can buy the questions or can cheat, why should I went through such torture to get the score I needed.
If only my parents have not teach me to be an honest person and to fulfill dreams without any helps neither from money nor from other people.
If only I could do such cheating method to get my dream job.
If only I could do those things to just make my parents happy.
Too many if-onlys already.....

Why should I cry for two days when the result was not what I hoped it would turn out.
Why should I argue with my mom, giving her reasons for me not being able to reach the so-called-standard that my destination country has set.
So the number that my destination country has set, wouldn't it be unfair to those honest people??allowing those cheaters to be able to achieve that score easily.

The Test That Sets The Standard.
B*LLSHIT!!!!!!

A Nation-wide Bad Habit

I dont know how or why nor when Indonesians develop this habit of commenting on someone's body shape and size.
Everytime I meet a person whom I havent seen for such a long time, the first thing they will say "Oh, you gained weight", or "Why havent you lost weight?", or "Oh, you lost so much weight, how did you do that?"
What worse is that I know a person who had been in Australia since primary school but recently came back to Indonesia and has been here for 2 years, first time he said when he met me after so long we havent met each other was, "Oh my God, you gained weight!!"
*WTF*
Tonight when I open my facebook account an aunty of mine who hasnt seen neither my mom nor me for quite a long time said, "Hey, I havent seen your mom for quite some times. She looked not so fat in your graduation picture. When was that?"
I was like WTF??!!!
After all this time we havent gathered together, first thing you commented on was my mom's 'size'??????
Is there nothing else you can criticized other than my mom's 'size'????
Jeezzzzz....

Other nation-wide habit is that Indonesians love to talk about others.
I have a friend whose graduation pictures werent uploaded on facebook, nor printed.
Long story short, nobody has ever seen her graduation picture.
What happened next made me angry.
People start to gossip about her not graduating.
Apparently before her dad went overseas to attend her graduation, he did tell few people about it.
Some even dare to say out loud about that gossip.
Now that she printed one of her graduation photo and put it on her home, people started to say, "oohh..she really graduated"
WHAT THE F*CCCKKK!!!!!!!!
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Oh dearr..~~~
What kind of world im living in??
Why Indonesians just cannot shut their f*cking mouth up???
Making me even more reluctant to residing back in Indonesia.

why did God create this kind of people?

So,
Recently I metand got to know a person who is so arrogant.
That's my judgement.
I'll tell you what she did and I'll let you judge.

Problem 1:
She said she graduated from a university from an english speaking country.
Her title is from a university that is not the expert in the field she was studying.
For example: If I was studying science then I'd be studying at Monash Uni.
And if I was studying commerce I'd be studying at Melb Uni.
But the thing is the uni she attended isn't a well-known uni.
The next problem is she is speaking a BROKEN english.
And if she ever encountered a girl/boy who study in a not-well-known uni, she will put a "stupid" label on him/her.

Problem 2:
She graduated from a field other than IT.
But when there is a computer problem she will act as if she is smarter than the IT engineer.
She even tell the IT engineer what to do and wasn't acting cooperative.

Problem 3:
She put a "not too rich" label to someone.
While the house she's staying in now was bought by her dad and not by her husband.
What label shall we put??

Problem 4:
A friend of her told me that if one of her staff late for 15 minutes she will ask her staff to fill in a "late form"
However, she never filled in any.

I know most of the stories I heard from a 3rd party but the thing is, a lot of people also testified that she is indeed like that.
So, what will you do if you meet a person like that??
How would you feel??
Would you feel what I feel??
Now I feel like pull her hair, kick her ass, slap her.
I'll kill her if I could=p

Aahhh~~
This world is unfair to those who become the victim..

Anw, for those of you who know who I meant, please do smile, or laugh if necessary

it's always about a son and never a daughter

My brother is the one who got the new speaker and when I asked to try it for just a week my parents look at me angrily.
My brother is the one my mom accompanied all the way to Malaysia.
My brother is the one for whom my mom bought a bottle of water everyday.
My brother is the one for whom my mom afraid that he will stumbled over a tangled wires.

When my brother took my CD player, my parents said to let it go.
In the end, my parents bought a new one and give their old to me.
And it didn't work and they told me to just listen to the radio.

I'm always the ugly daughter.
I'm always the fat daughter.
I'm always the rebelious daughter.
I'm always the one who befriended with wrong persons.
I'm always the one whose opinions are always too selfish and always wrong.
I'm always the selfish one.

I'm the one who has taken ielts for 3 times and still didn't pass.
I'm the one whose english pronounciation and accent is so bad that my mom who doesn't understand english hates and disgusted with the way I speak english.
And all I want is just a bit of their love.
A bit of their acknowledgement of my achievement.
Is that too much to ask??

Home, home, home

and so, and so, and so, and so...
am home.
I mean Indo. home. home sweet home. bed sweet bed;p
No more getting lost at streets that I dont know..haha~~
Driving for a week is more than enough. I dont want to drive at least for some good time;p
I'll let someone else drive me..LMAO.

but Im here only for a month.
hopefully when I go back to Melbourne things will be better.

Anyway, time to sleep after a day-long journey from MEL-DPS, and DPS-SUB.
what a tiring journey with Garuda Indonesia, never not late..!!!

Happy bday also to my friend Listi..;)
Hope next year will be a better year.
Hope the best for you in your study.

anyway,
*cheers* for my graduation;)

what a headache

So, my parents and my brother are here in Melbourne for my graduation.
Having them here is a bit of a headache and fun though.

My mom is the main source of my headache.
when Im driving, she keep telling me to stop at moments or junctions that I shouldnt.
when she's looking at things, she always converts everything to IDR so that all things become expensive and it is now a headache to buy things because cheap things (in AUD) has now become v v v expensive things according to IDR. Then, she starts to get angry at me, my dad, and my bro for buying things that for me is v cheap.

It is not that I dont like them being here.
I love it when they're here. I honestly am.
but still..
big headache..