It's new year, folksss!!! :D
A new year has begun; A new chapter of our life has been started.
Let the gone begone.
We've finish our fight for last year gracefully.
We hurt each other during the process.
However, let's just wipe the tears and turn the pout into a big smile in starting this new race.
Let's forgive and forget!!
Take a blank piece of paper and a nice pen; write 'Chapter 2011' at the very top of it and off we go embracing the new life.
Welcome to 2011.
Have a nice year ahead, guys.. :D
Friday, December 31, 2010
The standard Questions
The Indonesian has this habit of asking very personal and private questions concerning one's life regardless whether the questions being addressed are appropriate..
The typical questions:
1. Have you have a gf/bf?
2. Where is your gf/bf?
3. Did you gain weight?
4. What is your weight now? *by this point I would say F off if I could*
5. Graduated from uni?what was your GPA?? *what does it have to do with you?*
6. Working now?where?how much is your salary? *I do HATE talking about financial matters to strangers*
The typical questions:
1. Have you have a gf/bf?
2. Where is your gf/bf?
3. Did you gain weight?
4. What is your weight now? *by this point I would say F off if I could*
5. Graduated from uni?what was your GPA?? *what does it have to do with you?*
6. Working now?where?how much is your salary? *I do HATE talking about financial matters to strangers*
Why can't they just leave out this habit of asking private useless questions?
What's with the kaypoh-ness?
Compliment someone all the time without thinking too much; criticize someone only when you have thought about it seven times seven times seven times...
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
I'm so proud of him
So,
Him??who is he??my 9yo cousin!!
He was talking to his sister suddenly he said 'Here comes the plane!!'
So then I called him over and asked him what if the object was 'the planeS'
Sure as hell he answered 'Here come!'
Hahahaha..I'm proud as hell.. :D
Him??who is he??my 9yo cousin!!
He was talking to his sister suddenly he said 'Here comes the plane!!'
So then I called him over and asked him what if the object was 'the planeS'
Sure as hell he answered 'Here come!'
Hahahaha..I'm proud as hell.. :D
Friday, December 3, 2010
Enjoying Life
I don't have anything to say right now..
Am enjoying my life doing a job that is not accounting.
Am happy because I found the person I've been looking for for this 10 years - my godbrother. He's back and I am very happy and so is my family.
Nothing else I can say..:)
My life is perfect for the time being.. :)
Am enjoying my life doing a job that is not accounting.
Am happy because I found the person I've been looking for for this 10 years - my godbrother. He's back and I am very happy and so is my family.
Nothing else I can say..:)
My life is perfect for the time being.. :)
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Road Courtesy
I laughed out loud when I read this letter-from-reader that Reader's Digest posted.
"Apparently, while it is considered rude to use the horn in many countries, here in the Philippines it's considered a sign of 'courtesy'. The manner of honking too, conveys different messages:
1. Two short and soft honks - 'Oops, careful! You're getting too close to my car.'
2. Two hort but loud honks - 'Hey, get out of the way!'
3. One very long, loud and persistent honk - 'Hey, how did you even get your licence?'"
--Maria Suga A. Doiko, Philippines--
Now, Indonesians, does this story ring a bell in your head?
Feeling deja vu??
Were you the doer, were you the victim?? =)
I am still smiling; realizing that I was always -and will always be- the doer..:P
"Apparently, while it is considered rude to use the horn in many countries, here in the Philippines it's considered a sign of 'courtesy'. The manner of honking too, conveys different messages:
1. Two short and soft honks - 'Oops, careful! You're getting too close to my car.'
2. Two hort but loud honks - 'Hey, get out of the way!'
3. One very long, loud and persistent honk - 'Hey, how did you even get your licence?'"
--Maria Suga A. Doiko, Philippines--
Now, Indonesians, does this story ring a bell in your head?
Feeling deja vu??
Were you the doer, were you the victim?? =)
I am still smiling; realizing that I was always -and will always be- the doer..:P
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Where OUR Rainbows End
YES, I've been twenty two for a week..which means this is the 5th commemoration of my granddad's death.
I had a strange dream about him last night.
Woken up crying and keep crying for a good 30 minutes or so.
And I've just finished reading this book.
'Sometimes Fate Just Can't Stop Meddling'
YES YES YES!! I pray, I hope our fate will not stop meddling and one day we will be together just like Rossie Dunne and Alex Stewart...
*Fingers Crossed*
I had a strange dream about him last night.
Woken up crying and keep crying for a good 30 minutes or so.
And I've just finished reading this book.
'Sometimes Fate Just Can't Stop Meddling'
YES YES YES!! I pray, I hope our fate will not stop meddling and one day we will be together just like Rossie Dunne and Alex Stewart...
*Fingers Crossed*
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Storm and Friendship
So,
I went out with my girls.
Three of us.
On the way home, we recalled the story of our life. This is our favourite story..
The 6 yo story of the day when my BESTESTfriend of 10 year stopped talking to me.
The reason for that kept unknown until now.
This might be the biggest mistery that I will keep asking until the day I die, seriously!
This remains a big question for the people who know us, involved or not.
Stories behind the stage has come out one by one.
The new interesting fact I found out today is that one of our friend whom I thought was the kinda friend who doesnt care at all about this problem, went back home crying.
She was crying.
She is the kind of person, whom even today, still best known for her expresionless face.
She can conceal her feeling perfectly. No matter how sad, how happy, she always have that 'standardised' face.
But that day she went back to my other friend's home crying.
To her, I give my bigest thank you and deepest apology.
But honestly, your tears were my biggest support even today.
I know there is no way to restore this friendship.
I have done the best on my part, but it takes two to resurect a relationship.
I believe I have done and still doing my best and I will surrender the rest to God.
The biggest storm in my life.
A storm that set apart two best friends.
But from the debris grows a stronger friendship, a more beautiful one because it has gone through the bad time.
Another storm might still come but I believe it wont set us apart like before..;)
Dedicated to taciks.. :D
Nice evening with you guys.
Feli, if you read this be sure to feel JEALOUS because you werent there with us!!!:P
I went out with my girls.
Three of us.
On the way home, we recalled the story of our life. This is our favourite story..
The 6 yo story of the day when my BESTESTfriend of 10 year stopped talking to me.
The reason for that kept unknown until now.
This might be the biggest mistery that I will keep asking until the day I die, seriously!
This remains a big question for the people who know us, involved or not.
Stories behind the stage has come out one by one.
The new interesting fact I found out today is that one of our friend whom I thought was the kinda friend who doesnt care at all about this problem, went back home crying.
She was crying.
She is the kind of person, whom even today, still best known for her expresionless face.
She can conceal her feeling perfectly. No matter how sad, how happy, she always have that 'standardised' face.
But that day she went back to my other friend's home crying.
To her, I give my bigest thank you and deepest apology.
But honestly, your tears were my biggest support even today.
I know there is no way to restore this friendship.
I have done the best on my part, but it takes two to resurect a relationship.
I believe I have done and still doing my best and I will surrender the rest to God.
The biggest storm in my life.
A storm that set apart two best friends.
But from the debris grows a stronger friendship, a more beautiful one because it has gone through the bad time.
Another storm might still come but I believe it wont set us apart like before..;)
Dedicated to taciks.. :D
Nice evening with you guys.
Feli, if you read this be sure to feel JEALOUS because you werent there with us!!!:P
Sunday, August 8, 2010
These Proud Feelings
So,
I was talking to my friend yesterday.
This friend has a brother who is blind.
Despite his imperfection he is very talented in music.
But one thing I can tell, his family is very proud of him and not slightest hint of embarrassment.
Suddenly, it reminds me of my brother.
He has no such imperfection.
But from when we were little, I was the one who always achieve something.
I was always the one who won the music competition.
I was always the kid who was always in the top 10 of the class.
He was always the underdog.
But now he is a better musician than I am. He plays guitar and he learned it himself through books, youtube and friends. Never once he has a formal lesson for guitar.
He is the one who has GPA above 3.
He is the one has the dream to be a 'cum laude'
Im so proud of him!! :)
and I miss him..
This house is way too quiet when he is not around..:(
I was talking to my friend yesterday.
This friend has a brother who is blind.
Despite his imperfection he is very talented in music.
But one thing I can tell, his family is very proud of him and not slightest hint of embarrassment.
Suddenly, it reminds me of my brother.
He has no such imperfection.
But from when we were little, I was the one who always achieve something.
I was always the one who won the music competition.
I was always the kid who was always in the top 10 of the class.
He was always the underdog.
But now he is a better musician than I am. He plays guitar and he learned it himself through books, youtube and friends. Never once he has a formal lesson for guitar.
He is the one who has GPA above 3.
He is the one has the dream to be a 'cum laude'
Im so proud of him!! :)
and I miss him..
This house is way too quiet when he is not around..:(
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Dearest Friends
So,
This has been a long due post.
I am back in Indonesia now, for good.
It's kinda sad to know that now Im separated that far away with my friends.
However, it's also a relieve that finally I made a life-changing decision and fulfill it.
So, Dear my friends:
AmS: Im gonna miss you so much. Be strong!!Being a coordinator for something big like that is not easy...You need to learn how to make a decision. Remember, dont keep sacrificing yourself. Dont be soft-hearted.
AdS: Im gonna miss going to mass with you. Im going to miss our cafe sessions, our 'curhat' sessions, our gossip sessions. You guys are already like a sister to me.
SP: Ndut, come back to Indo ASAP!!!!!!!!!! :D
AD: You have made my every morning with your sarcastic jokes ever since I know you. You are the first guy who gave me middle-finger twice in two months time since we were introduced. I will never forget that!!NEVER!!:p
SHS: Thanks for all your help and advices...Though you are one of my friends who always prank me, but yes, I miss those pranks.... >.<
LN: We'll meet in Indo in October..:D
EH: You owe me a dinner in Indo...:P
JA, LO: Tututtt!! I miss you already.... =(
AAng, VA: Im so going to miss our pointless talk at nights.... you guys are my most dependable friends...
BH: When charm and glasses come together, there you are! =D
You've charmed me with your coolness and jokes..=D
CJ: Sorry if I've ever hurt you and made you cry...U still are one of my most dependable friends..:D
Last but not least,
SG: Dont cryyyyyy!!! We'll meet again in Indo one day...=)
Those name are not here doesnt mean I dont miss you..
I just can't find words to describe..;)
Im so gonna miss Melbourne.
In fact, when I wake up to day and start to plan my day, I still put daily mass at 530pm on my list and when I realised I cant do that anymore I cant help but cried..
Our friendship is gonna be so different now..
What is unspokeable by my mouth is expressed by my tears.
Life is gonna be so different now, Im going to face different challenge each and every day and only few of my friends here is going to understand what I am going through because they dont see me everyday like you guys do.
So long, farewell, auf wiedersehen, goodbye.
Im sure one day we'll meet again =D
At least I have that much faith in God..
This has been a long due post.
I am back in Indonesia now, for good.
It's kinda sad to know that now Im separated that far away with my friends.
However, it's also a relieve that finally I made a life-changing decision and fulfill it.
So, Dear my friends:
AmS: Im gonna miss you so much. Be strong!!Being a coordinator for something big like that is not easy...You need to learn how to make a decision. Remember, dont keep sacrificing yourself. Dont be soft-hearted.
AdS: Im gonna miss going to mass with you. Im going to miss our cafe sessions, our 'curhat' sessions, our gossip sessions. You guys are already like a sister to me.
SP: Ndut, come back to Indo ASAP!!!!!!!!!! :D
AD: You have made my every morning with your sarcastic jokes ever since I know you. You are the first guy who gave me middle-finger twice in two months time since we were introduced. I will never forget that!!NEVER!!:p
SHS: Thanks for all your help and advices...Though you are one of my friends who always prank me, but yes, I miss those pranks.... >.<
LN: We'll meet in Indo in October..:D
EH: You owe me a dinner in Indo...:P
JA, LO: Tututtt!! I miss you already.... =(
AAng, VA: Im so going to miss our pointless talk at nights.... you guys are my most dependable friends...
BH: When charm and glasses come together, there you are! =D
You've charmed me with your coolness and jokes..=D
CJ: Sorry if I've ever hurt you and made you cry...U still are one of my most dependable friends..:D
Last but not least,
SG: Dont cryyyyyy!!! We'll meet again in Indo one day...=)
Those name are not here doesnt mean I dont miss you..
I just can't find words to describe..;)
Im so gonna miss Melbourne.
In fact, when I wake up to day and start to plan my day, I still put daily mass at 530pm on my list and when I realised I cant do that anymore I cant help but cried..
Our friendship is gonna be so different now..
What is unspokeable by my mouth is expressed by my tears.
Life is gonna be so different now, Im going to face different challenge each and every day and only few of my friends here is going to understand what I am going through because they dont see me everyday like you guys do.
So long, farewell, auf wiedersehen, goodbye.
Im sure one day we'll meet again =D
At least I have that much faith in God..
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
All my bags are packed
So,
All my bags are packed.
All my clothes are packed.
All my shoes are packed.
And so are all my books.
Im ready to go.
Im standing here in the rather-empty room.
With empty heart.
That does not want to leave Melbourne just yet.
Today, I got an email from a big food company in Indonesia to attend their presentation and English test session on the 20th.
My ticket is for 25th and I dont know if I have the heart to leave Melbourne early.
I dont think I do.
So, what should I do, folks??
And today, talking to you has made my day..=)
You made me smile, you made me laugh.
You entertain me.
It's you..=)
All my bags are packed.
All my clothes are packed.
All my shoes are packed.
And so are all my books.
Im ready to go.
Im standing here in the rather-empty room.
With empty heart.
That does not want to leave Melbourne just yet.
Today, I got an email from a big food company in Indonesia to attend their presentation and English test session on the 20th.
My ticket is for 25th and I dont know if I have the heart to leave Melbourne early.
I dont think I do.
So, what should I do, folks??
And today, talking to you has made my day..=)
You made me smile, you made me laugh.
You entertain me.
It's you..=)
Sunday, July 11, 2010
The D Day
So,
As the departure day come closer, my tears seem to be the only way for me to express myself.
I was crying so hard in my prayer today at the mass.
I have no words to say to God.
I am always the person who speaks through words and actions now seem to lost all those ability to express my true feeling.
Only tears spoke the unspoken.
The fear.
The self-doubt.
The uncertainty.
But one thing I know, my friends' prayer will always be with me, and so do mine with them and only then that I will not be separated from Melbourne.
As the departure day come closer, my tears seem to be the only way for me to express myself.
I was crying so hard in my prayer today at the mass.
I have no words to say to God.
I am always the person who speaks through words and actions now seem to lost all those ability to express my true feeling.
Only tears spoke the unspoken.
The fear.
The self-doubt.
The uncertainty.
But one thing I know, my friends' prayer will always be with me, and so do mine with them and only then that I will not be separated from Melbourne.
Monday, July 5, 2010
From Mt Gambier to Mt Buller to my anger
So,
After last time's trip to Mornington, we planned another trip on 9th of July.
We've planned this right after we came back from Mornington.
We have reserved that date since what seems to be eons ago..
That time, the choices were either Mt Gambier of Grampians.
So, I told them no, i dont want to go to Grampians.
So, we were going to Mt Gmbier which is 7 hours away from Melbourne.
Few days before our departure, this friend of mine was complaining that she got motion sickness so she preferred not to travel that long distance.
So for 2 people we shifted from Mt Gambier to Mt Buller.
Now what happened????
Both of those people are not going..!!
They backed out from this trip..
Just nice!!!!!
After last time's trip to Mornington, we planned another trip on 9th of July.
We've planned this right after we came back from Mornington.
We have reserved that date since what seems to be eons ago..
That time, the choices were either Mt Gambier of Grampians.
So, I told them no, i dont want to go to Grampians.
So, we were going to Mt Gmbier which is 7 hours away from Melbourne.
Few days before our departure, this friend of mine was complaining that she got motion sickness so she preferred not to travel that long distance.
So for 2 people we shifted from Mt Gambier to Mt Buller.
Now what happened????
Both of those people are not going..!!
They backed out from this trip..
Just nice!!!!!
Friday, July 2, 2010
It's My Life
So,
this morning I received a text from one of my best friends saying that he'd like me to do him a favor. He stated quite clearly what he wanted.
So, this afternoon I sent another text to him to confirm what i did was right.
What I got for a reply was kinda upset me..
He said to me to be simple and just do what he asked me to do.
He has been acting strange lately so I dont know how to handle this 'new' friend of mine.
Apparently I handled him the wrong way..
Our friendship was amazing. I just dont want this to end this way.
At the same time, old friend wrote on my facebook wall.
Encouraging me to make action instead of just thinking about my future.
She told me that the four of us, although heading different way, should work harder to achieve our dream.
She said one day when we have at least grab a string of our future we shall celebrate at the usual place.
The thought of it has cheer me up more beyond your imagination.
The thought of our celebration is paramount to me.
This is my life.
Sad things, bad things.
Happy things, good things.
They happened at the same time.
They made me cry, the made me laugh.
They discourage me, at the same time encouraging me.
Thank God that my life is so colourful..;)
this morning I received a text from one of my best friends saying that he'd like me to do him a favor. He stated quite clearly what he wanted.
So, this afternoon I sent another text to him to confirm what i did was right.
What I got for a reply was kinda upset me..
He said to me to be simple and just do what he asked me to do.
He has been acting strange lately so I dont know how to handle this 'new' friend of mine.
Apparently I handled him the wrong way..
Our friendship was amazing. I just dont want this to end this way.
At the same time, old friend wrote on my facebook wall.
Encouraging me to make action instead of just thinking about my future.
She told me that the four of us, although heading different way, should work harder to achieve our dream.
She said one day when we have at least grab a string of our future we shall celebrate at the usual place.
The thought of it has cheer me up more beyond your imagination.
The thought of our celebration is paramount to me.
This is my life.
Sad things, bad things.
Happy things, good things.
They happened at the same time.
They made me cry, the made me laugh.
They discourage me, at the same time encouraging me.
Thank God that my life is so colourful..;)
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Damn this world cup!!
So,
I've just made a bet with my friend for Germany vs Argentina on 3rd of July.
If Germany wins he will treat me to a lunch.
On the other hand, if Argentina wins *cross fingers..dammit!* then i will have to pay for the lunch..
Did i just made a wrong bet, soccer maniaaa??!!!:P
I've just made a bet with my friend for Germany vs Argentina on 3rd of July.
If Germany wins he will treat me to a lunch.
On the other hand, if Argentina wins *cross fingers..dammit!* then i will have to pay for the lunch..
Did i just made a wrong bet, soccer maniaaa??!!!:P
Friday, June 25, 2010
The one with being so un-secretive
The more I think about you, the more I am obsessed with you.
I think this has gone more than a winter fling.
This curious feeling that I have towards you is overwhelming myself.
The more I know you, the more I am amazed with you.
The more I want to know you, the further I feel you are.
The more I hang out with you, the more we have in common.
I know that this will not be easy with the stuff happening lately..
I know this wont be easy as I have got one opponent in fron of my eye who is more likely to win this competition or sorts.
If I keep this thought inside me, I will be more likely to think about it all the time and in the end it will hurt myself.
So, here I am sharing the most secretive part of me.. DAMMIT!!!!
I think this has gone more than a winter fling.
This curious feeling that I have towards you is overwhelming myself.
The more I know you, the more I am amazed with you.
The more I want to know you, the further I feel you are.
The more I hang out with you, the more we have in common.
I know that this will not be easy with the stuff happening lately..
I know this wont be easy as I have got one opponent in fron of my eye who is more likely to win this competition or sorts.
If I keep this thought inside me, I will be more likely to think about it all the time and in the end it will hurt myself.
So, here I am sharing the most secretive part of me.. DAMMIT!!!!
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
self-doubt
Well,
people made decisions, small ones, big ones.
I have made mine. A very big one, a life-changing decision.
It was not easy to start with. It was a long and painful process before I can say 'OK, I will go back for good'
Believe me, that was not easy.
My life in Melbourne was like living in heaven. I stumbled upon problems, inevitably.
But I cleaned up the mess perfectly, or so I thought.
I messed up my high school life and now I realise I have just few real friends from back then.
All my life is going around my Melbourne friends.
And now that I have to leave here, imagine how this decision hurts me.
But I guess life is a choice. I can choose to life crying over the spilt milk or just go on and just fix every wrongs I have done. I am most likely to choose the later one.
Now that it came closer to the date when I should go home, I, rather unconciously, feel reluctant to do so. I cant make any decisions on simple and small small things.
I cant pick up any date to book ticket. If someone wants to help me PLEASE DO SO!! Any date in 3rd week of July will do...~~
I have no courage to just call the cargo company because it will indicate that I am seriously about to go home. DAMMIT!!!
Why do I become so indecisive?since when?!
Now after struggling with all those things, I start to doubt myself whether I am making the right decision to go home.
I know I haven't done enough effort to say that I can't find a job here.
But I have my parents who want me so bad to go back.
I cant turn down their request because one day, I don't want my brother to come back to Indon.
Multimedia doesn't have that much future in Indon. I don't think that by doing so I am sacrificing my own future, I still have the option to come back here to do my master degree and then find a job here if possible.
Who knows what the future brings?
I just need one more reason for me to stop doubting myself..
people made decisions, small ones, big ones.
I have made mine. A very big one, a life-changing decision.
It was not easy to start with. It was a long and painful process before I can say 'OK, I will go back for good'
Believe me, that was not easy.
My life in Melbourne was like living in heaven. I stumbled upon problems, inevitably.
But I cleaned up the mess perfectly, or so I thought.
I messed up my high school life and now I realise I have just few real friends from back then.
All my life is going around my Melbourne friends.
And now that I have to leave here, imagine how this decision hurts me.
But I guess life is a choice. I can choose to life crying over the spilt milk or just go on and just fix every wrongs I have done. I am most likely to choose the later one.
Now that it came closer to the date when I should go home, I, rather unconciously, feel reluctant to do so. I cant make any decisions on simple and small small things.
I cant pick up any date to book ticket. If someone wants to help me PLEASE DO SO!! Any date in 3rd week of July will do...~~
I have no courage to just call the cargo company because it will indicate that I am seriously about to go home. DAMMIT!!!
Why do I become so indecisive?since when?!
Now after struggling with all those things, I start to doubt myself whether I am making the right decision to go home.
I know I haven't done enough effort to say that I can't find a job here.
But I have my parents who want me so bad to go back.
I cant turn down their request because one day, I don't want my brother to come back to Indon.
Multimedia doesn't have that much future in Indon. I don't think that by doing so I am sacrificing my own future, I still have the option to come back here to do my master degree and then find a job here if possible.
Who knows what the future brings?
I just need one more reason for me to stop doubting myself..
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Life cycle
So,
I was having dinner with the girls.
We were talking, talking, and talking.
Sharing is caring ;)
Without even realising it, we suddenly were talking (Read: Complaining) about our bosses.
Suddenly, like being slapped, we fell silent.
It was an epiphany for all of us.
We suddenly realised that we have gone pass the days when we would sit down at the same restaurant and talking about uni.
We no longer complained about subjects, lecturers.
It is now time to complain about our bosses.
I hope there will be one day that we will complain about BEING bosses.
Life goes on.
While everything else seems to stay the same, our lifes keep running toward something unforseeable.
Hope life turns out good for us all ;)
I was having dinner with the girls.
We were talking, talking, and talking.
Sharing is caring ;)
Without even realising it, we suddenly were talking (Read: Complaining) about our bosses.
Suddenly, like being slapped, we fell silent.
It was an epiphany for all of us.
We suddenly realised that we have gone pass the days when we would sit down at the same restaurant and talking about uni.
We no longer complained about subjects, lecturers.
It is now time to complain about our bosses.
I hope there will be one day that we will complain about BEING bosses.
Life goes on.
While everything else seems to stay the same, our lifes keep running toward something unforseeable.
Hope life turns out good for us all ;)
Monday, June 7, 2010
Time Warp
Watching someone you love is dying, or even dead, is not easy.
Living in a memory of the past of someone you love passed away is hard.
Everytime you see something that reminds you of that person you cried.
Everytime you are reminded that you are living that person's dream you cried.
I am a person of no dream.
I am living someone else's dream...and I admit, that much is not easy.
I am trying so hard to remember how you look like.
I am trying so hard to remember the way you laugh, the way you talk to me....
but to no avail.
I only remember what a perfect role model you were.
and I am living my life as a sister to an awesome brother trying to achieve the prefection you showed me...but I am still working on it.
I am way passed your age when you passed away, but still if I could go back for just one more day..
I remember the day I graduated, I was full of joy for finally I have fulfill my dream to fulfill yours...
This is what you wanted to be.
I miss you that much..even after 10 years.
Living in a memory of the past of someone you love passed away is hard.
Everytime you see something that reminds you of that person you cried.
Everytime you are reminded that you are living that person's dream you cried.
I am a person of no dream.
I am living someone else's dream...and I admit, that much is not easy.
I am trying so hard to remember how you look like.
I am trying so hard to remember the way you laugh, the way you talk to me....
but to no avail.
I only remember what a perfect role model you were.
and I am living my life as a sister to an awesome brother trying to achieve the prefection you showed me...but I am still working on it.
I am way passed your age when you passed away, but still if I could go back for just one more day..
I remember the day I graduated, I was full of joy for finally I have fulfill my dream to fulfill yours...
This is what you wanted to be.
I miss you that much..even after 10 years.
Monday, May 24, 2010
*Sweat..*
So, one rainy night at Borders Chadstone.
Three girls were sitting on a super cozy sofa. One was reading National Geographic, the other two were reading hair-styling magazine and gossip magazine.
National-Geographic-Girl = NGG
Hair-styling-girl = HSG
NGG: 'Hey, look at this picture. It is the glacier of Greenland. This looks amazing' *looking at picture of the ice mountain in Greenland*
HSG: 'Yeah it is. Wooww..amazing'
NGG: 'Sadly they starts to melt due to the global warming whatsoever'
HSG: 'Really? Anyway, so Greenland is the time-lining country, yeah?'
NGG: 'What??!!'
HSG: ' The one we learned in elementary school. The country where the time zone is plus-zero'
NGG: *.......thinking hard..........* 'dumbass!!that is GREENWICH!!'
Three girls were sitting on a super cozy sofa. One was reading National Geographic, the other two were reading hair-styling magazine and gossip magazine.
National-Geographic-Girl = NGG
Hair-styling-girl = HSG
NGG: 'Hey, look at this picture. It is the glacier of Greenland. This looks amazing' *looking at picture of the ice mountain in Greenland*
HSG: 'Yeah it is. Wooww..amazing'
NGG: 'Sadly they starts to melt due to the global warming whatsoever'
HSG: 'Really? Anyway, so Greenland is the time-lining country, yeah?'
NGG: 'What??!!'
HSG: ' The one we learned in elementary school. The country where the time zone is plus-zero'
NGG: *.......thinking hard..........* 'dumbass!!that is GREENWICH!!'
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Weird People
So,
I encountered this very weird people of all times.
He is absolutely weird since 11 out of 10 of my friends said he is.
One day, he was cooking fried rice with big chunks of chicken and he got quite a lot of left over.
If I were him, If Im about to divide the left over for people to take home, I would make sure each people get at least one big chunk of the chicken.
He divided the left over and left two big pieces of chicken on the plate, when I asked why dont you put them into the left over bag he said those were for him to eat right at that moment..
I was like..
"what the hellll???????!!!!"
This very same person used to like one of my friend.
He would follow my friend around like there were invisible glue attached to them.
Which girl would feel comfortable with a guy following her around..?? I wont, and nor did my friend.
He would follow my friend around like some crazy stalker even when it was exam time.
He would be there before the exam started with weird excuses like
"I want to see whether the exam venue has changed"
dudee!!Monash always holds exam there since eons ago!!OMG
"I was about to meet my friend around here and so I decided to come here as well"
and he was there when we finish exam 3.5 hours later..such a lame excuse. I bet he was there all the time..
"I would like to feel the exam atmosphere"
dudee!!you have your own exam..like dduuuuhhhhh!!
Just this morning a notification from facebook came into my blackberry.
One of my friends just posted a comment on my status.
He commented on it last night so I bet he received the notification as well.
Then he answered my friends comment like it is his status..
giving a long long explanation on my friend's question.
I was like..
'WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU, BOYYYY??!!'
now I feel like changing my status..uugghh!!!
Undoubtedly the weirdest people I've ever met.
Even two of my friends who always have an over-positive view on people have agreed that he is indeed weird.
To be honest, I've seen people who have the patience to put up with weird people and I just plainly dont have it.
Im sorry if I hurt you in some ways *not that I really feel sorry in that way though* but I just cant help...
I encountered this very weird people of all times.
He is absolutely weird since 11 out of 10 of my friends said he is.
One day, he was cooking fried rice with big chunks of chicken and he got quite a lot of left over.
If I were him, If Im about to divide the left over for people to take home, I would make sure each people get at least one big chunk of the chicken.
He divided the left over and left two big pieces of chicken on the plate, when I asked why dont you put them into the left over bag he said those were for him to eat right at that moment..
I was like..
"what the hellll???????!!!!"
This very same person used to like one of my friend.
He would follow my friend around like there were invisible glue attached to them.
Which girl would feel comfortable with a guy following her around..?? I wont, and nor did my friend.
He would follow my friend around like some crazy stalker even when it was exam time.
He would be there before the exam started with weird excuses like
"I want to see whether the exam venue has changed"
dudee!!Monash always holds exam there since eons ago!!OMG
"I was about to meet my friend around here and so I decided to come here as well"
and he was there when we finish exam 3.5 hours later..such a lame excuse. I bet he was there all the time..
"I would like to feel the exam atmosphere"
dudee!!you have your own exam..like dduuuuhhhhh!!
Just this morning a notification from facebook came into my blackberry.
One of my friends just posted a comment on my status.
He commented on it last night so I bet he received the notification as well.
Then he answered my friends comment like it is his status..
giving a long long explanation on my friend's question.
I was like..
'WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU, BOYYYY??!!'
now I feel like changing my status..uugghh!!!
Undoubtedly the weirdest people I've ever met.
Even two of my friends who always have an over-positive view on people have agreed that he is indeed weird.
To be honest, I've seen people who have the patience to put up with weird people and I just plainly dont have it.
Im sorry if I hurt you in some ways *not that I really feel sorry in that way though* but I just cant help...
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Winter is around the corner
So,
It's getting colder.
Im getting fatter.
Im getting lazier.
Things are getting worse for some people.
Im having more problems deciding which things to take back to Indo.
Same shit different day..=(
It's getting colder.
Im getting fatter.
Im getting lazier.
Things are getting worse for some people.
Im having more problems deciding which things to take back to Indo.
Same shit different day..=(
Saturday, May 15, 2010
why did they do that??
So, call me racist call me whatever..I dont care.
But I have this one hateful feeling towards people from one certain country.
If you have stayed in Malaysia or Australia for some times you know which people Im talking about!!!
First day I arrived at Melbourne, I found out that my host parents were that country.
One day they asked me whether I want to go with them for a long weekend trip while Monash College doesnt recognise such a word. I had classes still..so politely I refused with the reason I had classes and they never asked me again to go on a trip with them.
They made a report to the education agent that helped me, saying that I was very introvert that they dont know how to reach me. I dont want to blend with their family.
Other day, the wife woke me up at 7 in the morning, I couldnt even open my eyes and she said to me "I'll teach you how to clean the toilet."
Firstly, the toilet wasnt very clean to start with.
Secondly, shit!!that was 7am and you want me to clean the toilet already??dumbass!!
And their house smell like shit!!
Move on to college days, I had one tutor who is very racist towards asians especially chinese.
One of my friend chinese-malaysian was accused of getting the key answer of the assignment while he had no supporting proof to say such a thing.
Finally, he failed my friend's assignment. I didnt know what happened next. As I heard my friend appealed but I asked no further.
One fine day, someone's phone rang in the class. I didnt hear that.
Unfortunately at the same time I felt like going to toilet.
So, I stood up from my chair and heading to toilet.
Halfway he shouted out at me saying "OK, if you go out and answer that phone, better for you not to come back to the class"
I was wearing jeans, he should have had noticed it whether I carried my phone or not and I remember clearly I didnt.
Moron!!!
I heard that his girlfriend, who was a very nice girl, died in an accident few years after I graduated from college.
I cant help but feeling happy for that girl.
She's better off dead than marry such a moron, racist guy.
The day before yesterday, while my train was approaching Oakleigh station, I saw the announcement board for smart buses saying Mordialloc 1 min.
So I got off the bus and running *at full speed:P* to the bus.
While I already stand in front of the door he drove the bus away.
So what I did was *rather un-ladylike-ly* hit the bus' window.
He stopped the bus and opened the door for me.
When I got on the bus he told me, "that's not the way you stop the bus"
I didnt reply him as I was still catching my breath.
He repeated again the very same sentence, "excuse me, that's not the way you stop the bus"
While he was doing that 2 other people hopped on to the bus.
Me: *pissed off already* I already stand outside the door when you drive the bus away
Driver: yeah but that's not the job for the bus driver to look for people running. When I have to drive away that means it's time. So you have to wait for the next bus *FYI, the next bus is 30 min away if not late*
Me: OK, just see how many people will have to wait outside, freezing, if I didnt hit the bus. Do you know that the next bus is 30 minutes away??
Driver: yeah, but that's not how you stop the bus. *apparently these people are so stupid that their brain can only think of one sentence within few minutes*
Me: *already angry and cant be bothered to think of any good argument for such brainless people* yeah right, but you stop the bus anyway. then what??!!
*CHECKMATE!!!*
And so he drove away the bus. Few seconds after, there are two of those people just happened to cross the road. They didnt wave, they didnt run. You know what the driver did??
He opened the door..
Lucky I was feeling happy that night, if not I would have prolonged the argument saying that he was racist!!
Just yesterday, one of my friends had an argument with a brainless, "those people", bus driver.
My friend got on the bus and stand at quite the front part of the bus.
He saw many people were getting on the bus after him, so he, with body gesture, asked them to just move to the back part of the bus.
The bus driver told him, "you cant stand there"
My friend couldnt be bothered to answer because he knew it would be as pointless as my argument the night before.
So, he pretended he didnt hear anything and just listen to his ipod.
The driver repeated again, "excuse me, you cant stand there"
My friend, because he's not brainless, ignore the bus driver and just listened to his ipod.hahaha:P
I genuinely tried to feel pity for "those people" taxi drivers who were stabbed and left to death for some.
However, seeing many of their people are so brainless and attitude-less, how can I feel pity for those people who were stabbed??
Get my point??
Undoubtedly, there are exceptions to every rules. This one as well.
Im only saying that MAJORITY of those people are like that.
By majority I mean 99%
I have an accountant who mentor me before, she was such a very very nice girl and she now has a baby girl.
Hope her baby girl will be as nice as her mother..
But I have this one hateful feeling towards people from one certain country.
If you have stayed in Malaysia or Australia for some times you know which people Im talking about!!!
First day I arrived at Melbourne, I found out that my host parents were that country.
One day they asked me whether I want to go with them for a long weekend trip while Monash College doesnt recognise such a word. I had classes still..so politely I refused with the reason I had classes and they never asked me again to go on a trip with them.
They made a report to the education agent that helped me, saying that I was very introvert that they dont know how to reach me. I dont want to blend with their family.
Other day, the wife woke me up at 7 in the morning, I couldnt even open my eyes and she said to me "I'll teach you how to clean the toilet."
Firstly, the toilet wasnt very clean to start with.
Secondly, shit!!that was 7am and you want me to clean the toilet already??dumbass!!
And their house smell like shit!!
Move on to college days, I had one tutor who is very racist towards asians especially chinese.
One of my friend chinese-malaysian was accused of getting the key answer of the assignment while he had no supporting proof to say such a thing.
Finally, he failed my friend's assignment. I didnt know what happened next. As I heard my friend appealed but I asked no further.
One fine day, someone's phone rang in the class. I didnt hear that.
Unfortunately at the same time I felt like going to toilet.
So, I stood up from my chair and heading to toilet.
Halfway he shouted out at me saying "OK, if you go out and answer that phone, better for you not to come back to the class"
I was wearing jeans, he should have had noticed it whether I carried my phone or not and I remember clearly I didnt.
Moron!!!
I heard that his girlfriend, who was a very nice girl, died in an accident few years after I graduated from college.
I cant help but feeling happy for that girl.
She's better off dead than marry such a moron, racist guy.
The day before yesterday, while my train was approaching Oakleigh station, I saw the announcement board for smart buses saying Mordialloc 1 min.
So I got off the bus and running *at full speed:P* to the bus.
While I already stand in front of the door he drove the bus away.
So what I did was *rather un-ladylike-ly* hit the bus' window.
He stopped the bus and opened the door for me.
When I got on the bus he told me, "that's not the way you stop the bus"
I didnt reply him as I was still catching my breath.
He repeated again the very same sentence, "excuse me, that's not the way you stop the bus"
While he was doing that 2 other people hopped on to the bus.
Me: *pissed off already* I already stand outside the door when you drive the bus away
Driver: yeah but that's not the job for the bus driver to look for people running. When I have to drive away that means it's time. So you have to wait for the next bus *FYI, the next bus is 30 min away if not late*
Me: OK, just see how many people will have to wait outside, freezing, if I didnt hit the bus. Do you know that the next bus is 30 minutes away??
Driver: yeah, but that's not how you stop the bus. *apparently these people are so stupid that their brain can only think of one sentence within few minutes*
Me: *already angry and cant be bothered to think of any good argument for such brainless people* yeah right, but you stop the bus anyway. then what??!!
*CHECKMATE!!!*
And so he drove away the bus. Few seconds after, there are two of those people just happened to cross the road. They didnt wave, they didnt run. You know what the driver did??
He opened the door..
Lucky I was feeling happy that night, if not I would have prolonged the argument saying that he was racist!!
Just yesterday, one of my friends had an argument with a brainless, "those people", bus driver.
My friend got on the bus and stand at quite the front part of the bus.
He saw many people were getting on the bus after him, so he, with body gesture, asked them to just move to the back part of the bus.
The bus driver told him, "you cant stand there"
My friend couldnt be bothered to answer because he knew it would be as pointless as my argument the night before.
So, he pretended he didnt hear anything and just listen to his ipod.
The driver repeated again, "excuse me, you cant stand there"
My friend, because he's not brainless, ignore the bus driver and just listened to his ipod.hahaha:P
I genuinely tried to feel pity for "those people" taxi drivers who were stabbed and left to death for some.
However, seeing many of their people are so brainless and attitude-less, how can I feel pity for those people who were stabbed??
Get my point??
Undoubtedly, there are exceptions to every rules. This one as well.
Im only saying that MAJORITY of those people are like that.
By majority I mean 99%
I have an accountant who mentor me before, she was such a very very nice girl and she now has a baby girl.
Hope her baby girl will be as nice as her mother..
Monday, May 10, 2010
Crazy Aussie
To apply for permanent residency in Australia you need to achieve 7 each band for your IELTS.
I believe everyone knows how hard for majority to achieve all 7. There must be at least one band that falls below 7.
Before you apply for PR, you need to do skill assessment which is technically just a piece of paper saying that applicant's study has qualified him/her.
IELTS 7 and skill assessment were two separate factors to apply for PR. Now they made it even harder.
I received an email few hours ago saying that now to apply for skill assessment by CPA/ICAA, you need to achieve IELTS of bloody 7.
Why do they made it so hard?
Do they want to cast away all the immigrants??
Dont they realise for this country to run they need those immigrants??
If nobody wants to study in Australia, where do Aussies get their money from??
While a lot of people have said that there are little to no advantage -more troubles instead- in being Australian PR, I wonder who wants to apply PR now??
Lucky I decided to go home for good.
This country is not that liveable anymore..
Aussie is not as nice as it used to be.
I believe everyone knows how hard for majority to achieve all 7. There must be at least one band that falls below 7.
Before you apply for PR, you need to do skill assessment which is technically just a piece of paper saying that applicant's study has qualified him/her.
IELTS 7 and skill assessment were two separate factors to apply for PR. Now they made it even harder.
I received an email few hours ago saying that now to apply for skill assessment by CPA/ICAA, you need to achieve IELTS of bloody 7.
Why do they made it so hard?
Do they want to cast away all the immigrants??
Dont they realise for this country to run they need those immigrants??
If nobody wants to study in Australia, where do Aussies get their money from??
While a lot of people have said that there are little to no advantage -more troubles instead- in being Australian PR, I wonder who wants to apply PR now??
Lucky I decided to go home for good.
This country is not that liveable anymore..
Aussie is not as nice as it used to be.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Possibilities (yet to) Happen
So,
What would you do if you lose contact with someone you dearly loved as a friend, a brother..
Someone you badly want to meet right at this very moment.
To whom you want to tell that you have fulfilled the unfulfilled.
I believe you would go any distance.
You would google up his name, his nickname.
If those attempts keep giving you nothing..
One thing you would do..
To put up a picture with him in it, hoping that one day, someone, some random person, will tag him.
Hopes are very small..Never hold on to something frail, people said.
But, no hope no life.
So, here I am waiting for a little magic (yet) to happen..
What would you do if you lose contact with someone you dearly loved as a friend, a brother..
Someone you badly want to meet right at this very moment.
To whom you want to tell that you have fulfilled the unfulfilled.
I believe you would go any distance.
You would google up his name, his nickname.
If those attempts keep giving you nothing..
One thing you would do..
To put up a picture with him in it, hoping that one day, someone, some random person, will tag him.
Hopes are very small..Never hold on to something frail, people said.
But, no hope no life.
So, here I am waiting for a little magic (yet) to happen..
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
The Never Ending Promotion
So,
as I was drinking my Teh Kotak I realized one thing.
See the difference??
The new package is saying '50% free' and this has been going on for years and years. I remember I saw this the first time when I was still in high school.
The first time this promotional package came out, they were celebrating something anniversary.
Now that it's been going on for few years, they took out the anniversary part, but they still put 50% free.
Hmm..~~
Marketing fellas, what's going on here??
as I was drinking my Teh Kotak I realized one thing.
See the difference??The new package is saying '50% free' and this has been going on for years and years. I remember I saw this the first time when I was still in high school.
The first time this promotional package came out, they were celebrating something anniversary.
Now that it's been going on for few years, they took out the anniversary part, but they still put 50% free.
Hmm..~~
Marketing fellas, what's going on here??
Friday, April 23, 2010
I Dont Have The Heart
As days goes by,
my time to leave Melbourne comes closer.
The willingness to leave and start a life back in Indonesia comes from me alone.
But I dare say it out loud,
'I don't have the heart to leave'
Melbourne has become my second home, the house Im living in feels like home.
2 years memories of good things and bad things.
I cried over simple things now.
I cried over the sand bear that me and my friend made on Chelsea Beach.
I cried over my cell group's togetherness.
I cried over this house. I cant imagine the time I have to say, 'Bye bye house..'
I will miss Melbourne.
I will miss the people inside.
I will miss those angers over late trains.
I will miss those times running for buses.
Maybe I will also miss the strong windy days.
Maybe I will miss having the electric blanket under my fitted sheet during winter.
Maybe I will miss the taste of Nutella.
Everything wont be same ever again.
But one thing I know, God will guide me.
I put my everything on God.
I dont know what to do, but God knows, so I'll let HIM lead me.
That's the only assurance I have over my uncertain life.
Monday, April 19, 2010
One Summer Fling
So,
I watched a lot of movies of dramas which love story started with one summer fling.
Hey, my summer has turned into autumn, and soon into winter..
When will this story be my winter sonata???
HAHAHAHA.. *cheezyyy.... -.-*
Huhuyy~~
Cant be helped, can I?? :P
HAIIZZ..~~
This one has NO CURE loorr..
What winter sonata, what summer fling..aiyoohh crazy me!! :(
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
What I Will Miss
I was on 630 bus to Monash Uni. When it stopped at Huntingdale Station a guy *hottie alert!!:P* hop on the bus and I saw he was walking limply.
He wore a thong on his right leg and as for the left, he carried the thong.
I saw his left leg was wounded on the part where it was in contact with the thongs, that was why he carried the thong by hand.
I saw the tissue he used to absorb his blood looked dodgy already.
So, I asked if he needed some more tissue. Doing good deed while flirting *one kill two birds. LOL:D*
Then he gave me back the rest of my tissue, said thank you, and smiled at me *wwwaaaaa~~~..*
Other time, I fell because I stepped on something. This happened at QV.
One guy came up and asked whether I was ok and then he picked up the thing that caused me to fall and threw it away.
*SIGHHH...*
It got me thinking, now that Im leaving this country, I wont be able to experience those kind of feeling ever again.
In Indonesia, if you do that to some strangers, let alone thanking you, not giving you skeptic look is counted good enough.
I will miss at least this aspect of Australia where people are friends with people.
Racism is something that we cant avoid when living in a multicultural country.
Putting away the racism, I will miss the warm-hearted Aussies...
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Who's Afraid of The Big Bad Wolf
So,
All of a sudden a tune was playing in my memory.
I was thinking for some times what and why is this song keep playing inside my head.
Suddenly I remember!! It is a disney song that won me my very first trophy ever.
I was much younger. I still remember how proud I am to bring that trophy home although that was only for the 3rd winner.
Aaahhh..~~ reminiscing childhood always makes me happy..;)
Thursday, April 8, 2010
la vie nouvelle
So,
planning to go back for good doesnt seem as frightening as before.
Besties are going with me to Jakarta. To be exact we have plan to go to Jakarta.
Hopefully everything will be realised.
Im very excited to go back for good.
A bit hard to leave my friends here, but for a better future I have to go back and I can barely wait.
July seems so long with all this excitement.
I might not be here when my best friend come and visit Melbourne for a week.
I might not be here to hang out with him.
One thing Im sure AKU BISA DICULIK LAGI SETIAP SAAT DI INDOOO.....;P
Im damn excited...
If this few days I cant sleep thinking of my job hunting, now I cant sleep thinking how much fun I will have back in Indo..:)
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
The Day I Made My Big Decision
So,
Ive made the decision.
The biggest decision in my life so far.
I'll be going back for good.
This seems to be the answer to all my prayers.
I prayed Novena when I appealed for my 6.5 speaking result.
I prayed when I sit the test last February so that if God's plan were for me to stay in Melbourne so be it 7 for speaking and writing. They were not.
I prayed when I was interviewed for CKM in fact as you know, I got the news that I wasnt accepted.
I prayed for the TR process to be smooth when in fact until now I have no news from DIMIA.
Now, my family also has some issues.
Maybe it was not that my prayers werent answered.
Maybe they were answered but in a way that I dont expect.
Maybe while I was waiting for a YES instead God gave me a NO.
After all the thinking and inquiring were done, I chose to leave Melbourne.
Maybe not for ever since I might be back for a postgraduate degree in 3-4 years maybe less.
Who knows....
All I know is that after I have the gut to tell people that I've decided to go back for good I feel like a ton of burden has just been lifted from my shoulders.
Maybe this is not all.
Maybe there will be more than just a decision to leave Melbourne.
Maybe far more than that, maybe it will cost me something else that I have been waiting for so long.
Maybe it will cost me dearly.
But, as for now, the decision is made.
As for when, only God knows..;)
Ive made the decision.
The biggest decision in my life so far.
I'll be going back for good.
This seems to be the answer to all my prayers.
I prayed Novena when I appealed for my 6.5 speaking result.
I prayed when I sit the test last February so that if God's plan were for me to stay in Melbourne so be it 7 for speaking and writing. They were not.
I prayed when I was interviewed for CKM in fact as you know, I got the news that I wasnt accepted.
I prayed for the TR process to be smooth when in fact until now I have no news from DIMIA.
Now, my family also has some issues.
Maybe it was not that my prayers werent answered.
Maybe they were answered but in a way that I dont expect.
Maybe while I was waiting for a YES instead God gave me a NO.
After all the thinking and inquiring were done, I chose to leave Melbourne.
Maybe not for ever since I might be back for a postgraduate degree in 3-4 years maybe less.
Who knows....
All I know is that after I have the gut to tell people that I've decided to go back for good I feel like a ton of burden has just been lifted from my shoulders.
Maybe this is not all.
Maybe there will be more than just a decision to leave Melbourne.
Maybe far more than that, maybe it will cost me something else that I have been waiting for so long.
Maybe it will cost me dearly.
But, as for now, the decision is made.
As for when, only God knows..;)
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
My Easter
So,
I was departing on 630 bus towards Monash University last Monday.
It was as usual, greeting the driver, validate ticket and sitting down.
But suddenly when one passenger went off, the driver came to me asking, "have I greeted you Happy Easter?"
I said I thought so.
Then he handed me $2 coin and said "This is for you because this year I forgot to buy easter chocolate"
Wowww..he instantly made my day...;)
It's not because it's $2, not that it can buy me something these days.
Not because it came from a bus driver, not that I think I will meet him again now that I think Im about to go back for good.
But because it's from someone's heart.
Suddenly my heart filled with warmth. It felt great..;)
But now, this morning, after yesterday's fun to Phillip Island.
I received a text message from a friend saying "Van, let us find another work. Our friend L has just accepted to that job"
Fyi, the three of us was interviewed for the same job.
What makes me angry is not the fact that my friend got the job.
For that Im sure Lord has His own plan for me.
Only the company didnt give equal opportunity for us to compete.
1st friend was interviewed in a very casual manner. No fuss, no muss.
2nd was me. The interviewer asked me what's the different between financial accounting and management accounting. I answered management accounting mainly managing how the company could run more efficiently while financial accounting dealing with what has happened.
She said my answer was wrong and that I didnt understand a single thing about financial accounting and management accounting.
She said the answer should be that financial accounting is dealing with the past of the company and management accounting dealing with the future of the company.
hhmm....fine.whatever.
3rd friend was the one who got accepted.
And only this morning that I found out that she didnt even interviewed.
She was called to come to the office, and talked to the interviewer while standing (which proves how casual it was) and on the spot she was asked for a trial.
And she got accepted.
So what actually Lord's plan is??
For me to go back for good?
or whatt?????!!
I feel like crying now because my future seems to be slipping away from my hand.
I dont know what to do and where to go.
I dont know who I am anymore.
And I feel plainly STUPID!!
I was departing on 630 bus towards Monash University last Monday.
It was as usual, greeting the driver, validate ticket and sitting down.
But suddenly when one passenger went off, the driver came to me asking, "have I greeted you Happy Easter?"
I said I thought so.
Then he handed me $2 coin and said "This is for you because this year I forgot to buy easter chocolate"
Wowww..he instantly made my day...;)
It's not because it's $2, not that it can buy me something these days.
Not because it came from a bus driver, not that I think I will meet him again now that I think Im about to go back for good.
But because it's from someone's heart.
Suddenly my heart filled with warmth. It felt great..;)
But now, this morning, after yesterday's fun to Phillip Island.
I received a text message from a friend saying "Van, let us find another work. Our friend L has just accepted to that job"
Fyi, the three of us was interviewed for the same job.
What makes me angry is not the fact that my friend got the job.
For that Im sure Lord has His own plan for me.
Only the company didnt give equal opportunity for us to compete.
1st friend was interviewed in a very casual manner. No fuss, no muss.
2nd was me. The interviewer asked me what's the different between financial accounting and management accounting. I answered management accounting mainly managing how the company could run more efficiently while financial accounting dealing with what has happened.
She said my answer was wrong and that I didnt understand a single thing about financial accounting and management accounting.
She said the answer should be that financial accounting is dealing with the past of the company and management accounting dealing with the future of the company.
hhmm....fine.whatever.
3rd friend was the one who got accepted.
And only this morning that I found out that she didnt even interviewed.
She was called to come to the office, and talked to the interviewer while standing (which proves how casual it was) and on the spot she was asked for a trial.
And she got accepted.
So what actually Lord's plan is??
For me to go back for good?
or whatt?????!!
I feel like crying now because my future seems to be slipping away from my hand.
I dont know what to do and where to go.
I dont know who I am anymore.
And I feel plainly STUPID!!
Sunday, April 4, 2010
One Final Call
So,
Few days ago my mom called me and asked me what I wanted to do with my life?
My life??? I f*cking dont know!!
Everything seems so uncertain these days after graduation.
I complained a lot during uni life.
Thought I wont complain any longer after that, but here I am and complaining even worse.
More over, now Im not the one who is complaining.
My mom seems to complain a lot about me.
Saying Im so slow, people alwas get everything first before me.
So, there was one fine day that my mom called me and said one of my friend IC was offered a job at a company but unfortunately, his visa does not allow him to work in Australia.
So, what happened?
He didnt get the job.
You know what my mom suggested me to do?
Come to him and ask him which company that was.
It got me thinking, so my mom wanted me to come to my friend saying, "dude, since you didnt get the job let me have it"
Isnt it rude???!!
What's in her head??!!
Other days she would call me and ask me how's my job hunting and scolded me for not getting a job quickly.
She kept asking me has my housemate who graduate at the same time with me got a job?
I told her the truth that she hasnt.
I was wondering....When I was a kid I used to compare my mom to my friend's and she told me to just swallow it down and if Im not satisfied with her I can be other people's daughter.
So, what happened if I turn the situation around? What if I told her to just be other people's (who's got a job) mom.
Anyway, after telling her the truth that my housemate hasnt got a job herself, I thought she would stop scolding me and just realised that it is now VERY VERY VERY VERY hard to find a job in this f*cking country.
(sorry about those rather inappropriate words. Im getting tired with this job hunting phase of my life that seems so hard)
In fact, she kept scolding me saying why others have got a job before I do.
Just who the hell do you mean with 'others', mom??
I told you so many times that none of my friends has got a job..
Oh my dear God!!!
The last time she called me, she asked me to set a date for myself that if at which I havent got a job I have to go back for good.
I can either move to another country *and she literally said didnt care which country. It might as well be South Africa taming a wild cheetah* or go back to Indonesia.
She asked roughly when this date will be.
I said in a year because that's how I see my friend. Even the smartest in school who graduated on 2008 found a job just late last year.
She screamed in horror saying that one year was simply UNACCEPTABLE giving me the reason that company who would hire me would wonder why I havent got a job within one year.
The reason sounded pretty acceptable to me.
So, I fought no further.
Last Wednesday I had two interviews. In the morning was for the full time, in the evening was for the part time.
I texted her in the morning before I went to the interview.
She texted me back wishing me good luck and said that she would keep praying for me.
That was fine.
Until in the evening, after my 2nd interview, I texted her telling her that I got accepted into the part time job for sure and that it would start in May.
She replied "OK, then find another job to do in April"
She didnt even congratulate me.
FINE!!!
Just f*ck off!!
I wont call you again even if you ask me to so that you wont have the chance to ruin my day, mom!!!
Not until I have good news for you which means I've got myself a full time job.
I thought Ive gone past those puberty days when hormones ruled me and caused me to argue with my mom a lot.
This job hunting phase is starting to get to my nerve.
And until now Im still thinking what if until August (the time that my mom set for me without even asking me) I havent got myself a job and my mom wants me back to Indonesia?
What am I gonna do there???
I hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know today is Easter, and I supposed to forgive my mom.
I love God. I love my family.
I just really hate my life and myself!!!
Few days ago my mom called me and asked me what I wanted to do with my life?
My life??? I f*cking dont know!!
Everything seems so uncertain these days after graduation.
I complained a lot during uni life.
Thought I wont complain any longer after that, but here I am and complaining even worse.
More over, now Im not the one who is complaining.
My mom seems to complain a lot about me.
Saying Im so slow, people alwas get everything first before me.
So, there was one fine day that my mom called me and said one of my friend IC was offered a job at a company but unfortunately, his visa does not allow him to work in Australia.
So, what happened?
He didnt get the job.
You know what my mom suggested me to do?
Come to him and ask him which company that was.
It got me thinking, so my mom wanted me to come to my friend saying, "dude, since you didnt get the job let me have it"
Isnt it rude???!!
What's in her head??!!
Other days she would call me and ask me how's my job hunting and scolded me for not getting a job quickly.
She kept asking me has my housemate who graduate at the same time with me got a job?
I told her the truth that she hasnt.
I was wondering....When I was a kid I used to compare my mom to my friend's and she told me to just swallow it down and if Im not satisfied with her I can be other people's daughter.
So, what happened if I turn the situation around? What if I told her to just be other people's (who's got a job) mom.
Anyway, after telling her the truth that my housemate hasnt got a job herself, I thought she would stop scolding me and just realised that it is now VERY VERY VERY VERY hard to find a job in this f*cking country.
(sorry about those rather inappropriate words. Im getting tired with this job hunting phase of my life that seems so hard)
In fact, she kept scolding me saying why others have got a job before I do.
Just who the hell do you mean with 'others', mom??
I told you so many times that none of my friends has got a job..
Oh my dear God!!!
The last time she called me, she asked me to set a date for myself that if at which I havent got a job I have to go back for good.
I can either move to another country *and she literally said didnt care which country. It might as well be South Africa taming a wild cheetah* or go back to Indonesia.
She asked roughly when this date will be.
I said in a year because that's how I see my friend. Even the smartest in school who graduated on 2008 found a job just late last year.
She screamed in horror saying that one year was simply UNACCEPTABLE giving me the reason that company who would hire me would wonder why I havent got a job within one year.
The reason sounded pretty acceptable to me.
So, I fought no further.
Last Wednesday I had two interviews. In the morning was for the full time, in the evening was for the part time.
I texted her in the morning before I went to the interview.
She texted me back wishing me good luck and said that she would keep praying for me.
That was fine.
Until in the evening, after my 2nd interview, I texted her telling her that I got accepted into the part time job for sure and that it would start in May.
She replied "OK, then find another job to do in April"
She didnt even congratulate me.
FINE!!!
Just f*ck off!!
I wont call you again even if you ask me to so that you wont have the chance to ruin my day, mom!!!
Not until I have good news for you which means I've got myself a full time job.
I thought Ive gone past those puberty days when hormones ruled me and caused me to argue with my mom a lot.
This job hunting phase is starting to get to my nerve.
And until now Im still thinking what if until August (the time that my mom set for me without even asking me) I havent got myself a job and my mom wants me back to Indonesia?
What am I gonna do there???
I hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know today is Easter, and I supposed to forgive my mom.
I love God. I love my family.
I just really hate my life and myself!!!
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Be smart, think smart, do smart??google it!!
So,
What would you do if you already knew the name of a shop and wanted to find out its address??
I asked two friends about this and they said let google do its job and so I told my friend.
Not long after, came another question. What was the suburb of the shop??
AArrggghhhh..~~
Just f*cking google itt!!!!!!!!
It's for you to know and for Google to find out! Nice and easy, dude!!
Capek deh nontok wedok menye2 gak iso opo2!!!
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
About giving up..
I just realised how hard it is to look for a job.
Everytime I found a new way to get a job seems like doors are closing up on me.
Lord please help me.
Im about to give up here..:(
On the other hands I dont want to make my parents disappointed.
What should I do?
Everytime I found a new way to get a job seems like doors are closing up on me.
Lord please help me.
Im about to give up here..:(
On the other hands I dont want to make my parents disappointed.
What should I do?
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
For One More Day
Lord, if you see them in heaven, tell them how much I love them and how much I miss them.
How much I would like to see them one more day, see one more smile, get one more pat in my back.
Tell bro that his death wasnt in vain. See now his little brother has gotten himself a master degree. See now I have gotten myself a bachelor degree.
Tell him I wanted to hear his laugh just one more time.
Tell gramps how much this shattered family needs him.
Tell them how much I wanted to hug them tightly right now at this very moment.
Lord, I pray for You to forgive their sins.
I pray for them to see me in my dream and give me just one more smile to give me the courage I need.
Amen.
Friday, March 5, 2010
Backstreets Boys is Back!!
So,
I watched backstreet boys 'this is us' concert tour 2010 last Friday.
I underestimate them a little bit at first.
I even thought a thousand times before buying the ticket.
I even forgot the date. Thanks to my friend Adriani who reminded me of the concert.
I didnt even know where the concert was.
But t'was awesommmeeee!!!
If I could, I would go for another round.
The sound system was fantastic.They used on-stage DJ so the music arrangement is a bit different from recorded version, only so much better..
OHMIGODDDDDDDDD.....I would give everything to go for another round:p
Even though they are 30ish now, they still can dance...............................and Nick Carter is still as HOT!!!kyaaaaaaa~~~... and Howie and AJ are hotter while Brian is so-so:p
Funny thing, if I heard it right I spotted 1 mistake Nick did.
When he sang As Long As You Love Me he sang "cant get you out of my heart" he didnt really finish the word 'heart' as soon as he realised it was wrong he changed to "yeeeee..."
I just realised it when I re-watch the video I recorded..;p
Apart from that funny mistake the show was WWWWWOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW..~~~
I want moreee!!!=(
*Show me the meaning of being lonelyyyyy...*
Speaking of which, when will Westlife come to Melb???!!!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Dream Destroyer
So,
There is a girl who has this one simple dream.
She wants her kids to know their great-grandparents, know their real hometown, know how good it feels to grow up in a countryside, how peaceful it is to live in a village.
She wants them to know her real hometown. Where she spent her holidays chasing chickens, going to the beach building sand castle, seeing padi fields everywhere she went.
But a bunch of stupid and greedy people have just destroyed her dream.
Starting with her greedy auntie who married her uncle knowing that he is the only son in the family, hoping she would inherit all the wealth.
Just like any other Chinese family. Like any other movies storyline, the greedy auntie starts trying to claim what she deemed to be hers, as soon as the head of the family passed away.
Starting from selling furnitures, trying to sell off houses, and brainwashed her kids to hate the kids' dad's family.
Until one day this girl's family members are so angry that they said they are more of a family without the greedy auntie and her family because her greediness has just ruined everything.
And history has just repeat itself when the greedy auntie's son has a girlfriend who is also greedy, who hopes one day she can marry him and get all his inheritance.
People outside are asking, why the hell this greedy auntie loves her son's girlfriend so much while it is very obvious to outsiders that she is very very greedy.
Why oh why......
Do you know why???
Yesssssss....It is because the greedy auntie sees herself in this f*cking ugly, greedy and kaypoh girl.
The greedy auntie cant help remembering the time when she flied to Europe to chase her boyfriend, and made herself pregnant so that anybody cant help but let them get married.
Aaahhh..life oh life~~
This greedy auntie is so dominating in her marriage that she (un)consciously pushed her husband to the edge, made her husband a gambler, drunk, and in the end blamed her husband for acting that way..
WWWOoooooOoOOwwWWW......~~
Greedy auntie turns out to be very smart, doesnt sheeee???!!
By simply made herself pregnant supported by her greediness she can destroy a very big family, and a girl's simple dream.
AAhhaaaa....!!
Now you know what to do if you want to catch a rich guy and marry her so that you can get yourself big big shining inheritance....;p
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Dont Drink and Drive!!!!!
"EF Teacher Died in a motorbike accident on 16th of December"
So,
I was just browsing on facebook and wished my friend's sister happy belated bday when I stumblen upon her blog link.
So I decided to take a look at her marvelous blog and saw this blog entry she did.
She posted a story about her EF teacher who died in a terrible motorbike accident last december.
I know it's kinda late to do this entry now.
Even worse, I dont know this person at all.
He was David Kingsley William. He was a teacher at EF Kayoon as I've said before.
This post was not intended to be a tribute for him but I just dont want him to die in vain.
Please please please dont drink and drive!!!
I am Indonesian, and I am not saying that we are better than those people we call 'bule' which basically means caucasian.
It's just I cant help feeling sad for those people who died in accident just because they were drunk or the driver was drunk.
Come on people!!
Dont you know that people at home are waiting for you??
Dont you know they love you deeply that if you hurt yourself even a bit you gonna hurt them even deeper.
Living in Australia for 3 years I saw people who drink beer as if it were water.
Drunk people are not uncommon.
So, one day I decided to try one gulp of beer. It tasted way too awful that I dont even want to try again.
Why wasting your life on those taste-like-crap yellow liquid???
This David Kingsley apparently was a very loved teacher. His students are mourning on his death. His mom and fellow teacher were hysterical when they saw his death body covered in blood.
I cant help thinking why did he do that? He did not seem like those people who are depressive and seek console from alcohol. He was a well-loved man.
Albeit dont know him, I cant help feeling sad. Especially knowing his mom's and friends' reaction.
He was only 31 for god sake.
May you rest in peace David Kingsley William.
Your students here seem to miss you a lot, your mom and friends also.
RIP David Kingsley William
14th february 1978 - 13th December 2009
To see my friend's blog entry about her beloved english teacher click here
I wish I dont waste my time making this entry.
I hope this entry at least make those people who grieve upon David's death feel a little bit better.
I hope this blog entry can be useful because I think by now I should have been asleep or busy preparing myself for tomorrow's interview.
For those who didnt know, I have an interview tomorrow morning so, please wish me luck..:)
Friday, February 19, 2010
The blah
NNNNNNNNUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!Where did my background go???!!So, I ended up looking for a new background and stumbled upon this new peaceful theme of mine..Keep changing layouts isnt that nice because I have to fix things such as the 'friends in thought section'*sigh**sobbing*
Do they know that whether you are healthy or not is determined by the body mass index (BMI) and not determined by photos of some anorexic models???
Why cant girls just feel satisfied when they are healthy, doing sport, and nobody telling them they are fat and ugly???
*Jeezzzzzz..*
Anyway, I just found out that apparently with the world shifting to a healthier-shaped models, girls are still stuck in the old paradigm that girls should look something like the laundry board.
Do they know that whether you are healthy or not is determined by the body mass index (BMI) and not determined by photos of some anorexic models???
Why cant girls just feel satisfied when they are healthy, doing sport, and nobody telling them they are fat and ugly???
*Jeezzzzzz..*
Case A
This friend of mine has the height about 150 *yes yes yes we are asians and we should eat more calcium!!!* and weigh around 43-47 approximately *have never asked her*
She looks fine for me.
In fact, she looks so petite already, so small with only 150cm of height.
Shocking me the most, she often times said she wants to go on a diet to shed some kilos.
One day I asked her how does she want to look like?
She pointed to someone look something like this...........
While in fact she already look somewhere like
Oh no. wrong picture. This girl looks like her niece instead..;pShe's so cute I cant help uploading it here..hahaha;p
Imagine this girl.
Same cuteness, same sweet smile, same asian face, same long hair, only smaller bones and 150 cm.
That shall look like my friend.
Does she look anywhere near overweight to you?
Do you think she need to shed another few kilos?
I dont think so. I dont think she need to shed some kilo. I dont think she need to go on a diet scheme.
Yet, I cant talk her out of it.
Case B
Yet another girl.
This time 160, very ideal body shall not be more than 57 kg.
Only need a little bit of sport to make her look more firm.
The only problem is her cheeks are chubby while none of her family member has them.
And she jumped to a conclusion that she is overweight and need to shed some kilos.
Both girl A and B are constantly saying that they need to go on diet on and on again until my ears turn red and I just feel like GAAHHH!!enough already!!
Case C
Another friend, 160 cm, 75 kg, looks somewhere near Kelly Clarkson at this stage
And as people say, she seems happy to be where she's at.
She is indeed trying to lose some weight but she told me she would stop somewhere at 60 or 55 although she said she fully aware that those range is in the upper end of her healthy BMI.
The most important thing, she is not pushing it and she does not keep saying the four words magic word D-I-E-T on and on and on and on......
My Questions are:
1. Why cant they just be happy with what they have now? I was thinking, that should be what people called greediness as the Freedictionary(dot)com describe greediness as 'Excessively desirous of acquiring or possessing'.
2. If you were a guy *or you are a guy;p*, which girl would you choose if the three of them have the same good personality?
aahh..this world oh this world..;)
Im just happy to be where I am;p
I just need a JOBBBBBB..!!!but that's a different story entirely, obviously!;p
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
I might, I might
Im afraid to feel it again.
But Im afraid I might already have.
Im afraid to fall again.
But Im afraid I might already have.
Im afraid to confess and share.
But I think I might have to, someday.
I feel like some part of me has been taken away from me.
I think I might not succeed again this time round, but I dont know how to get rid of it.
Lord, please help me.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Dear God
Dear God, the only thing I ask of You
Is to hold them when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away..
Ps: yes I'm gonna miss you.
I already miss you now.
I hate to say gpodbye but I, apparently, have to.
And yes, in case you don't know, I'm sad.
V v sad.
Is to hold them when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away..
Ps: yes I'm gonna miss you.
I already miss you now.
I hate to say gpodbye but I, apparently, have to.
And yes, in case you don't know, I'm sad.
V v sad.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
The Test That Sets The Standard
So,
In this world, people know two most famous english tests.
I wont say any name, but Im sure you know them.
Few days ago when I took preparation class for one of the tests, the person who helped me told me that so long ago *and he regretted it that much* he once helped few students who are willing to pay $2000 (Neither will I say what currency it was in because I didnt ask, so basically idk;p) to pay for the 'version zero' question sheet.
Say, my test was for tomorrow, then tonight I would get the test for that amount of money.
However, on the very day of the test, you can barely cheat.
All dodgy things must be prepared the night before.
Only this afternoon that people have found a way to cheat on the other test.
Someone I and my friend know took the test.
Suddenly my friend received a message from this particular candidate and asking what answer shall he choose *BIG hint: the questions were asking about grammar*
This test taker could even call my friend albeit could only whisper.
"The Test That Sets The Standard"
Can we still believe in this motto??
Can we still believe in the standard that those tests are setting?
To be honest I cant.
One thing that makes me more disappointed is that in order for me to be able to get a job,to fulfill my dream, I have to take one of those test *can be easily guessed which one it is;p*
I have taken the test thrice.
If only I can buy the questions or can cheat, why should I went through such torture to get the score I needed.
If only my parents have not teach me to be an honest person and to fulfill dreams without any helps neither from money nor from other people.
If only I could do such cheating method to get my dream job.
If only I could do those things to just make my parents happy.
Too many if-onlys already.....
Why should I cry for two days when the result was not what I hoped it would turn out.
Why should I argue with my mom, giving her reasons for me not being able to reach the so-called-standard that my destination country has set.
So the number that my destination country has set, wouldn't it be unfair to those honest people??allowing those cheaters to be able to achieve that score easily.
The Test That Sets The Standard.
B*LLSHIT!!!!!!
In this world, people know two most famous english tests.
I wont say any name, but Im sure you know them.
Few days ago when I took preparation class for one of the tests, the person who helped me told me that so long ago *and he regretted it that much* he once helped few students who are willing to pay $2000 (Neither will I say what currency it was in because I didnt ask, so basically idk;p) to pay for the 'version zero' question sheet.
Say, my test was for tomorrow, then tonight I would get the test for that amount of money.
However, on the very day of the test, you can barely cheat.
All dodgy things must be prepared the night before.
Only this afternoon that people have found a way to cheat on the other test.
Someone I and my friend know took the test.
Suddenly my friend received a message from this particular candidate and asking what answer shall he choose *BIG hint: the questions were asking about grammar*
This test taker could even call my friend albeit could only whisper.
"The Test That Sets The Standard"
Can we still believe in this motto??
Can we still believe in the standard that those tests are setting?
To be honest I cant.
One thing that makes me more disappointed is that in order for me to be able to get a job,to fulfill my dream, I have to take one of those test *can be easily guessed which one it is;p*
I have taken the test thrice.
If only I can buy the questions or can cheat, why should I went through such torture to get the score I needed.
If only my parents have not teach me to be an honest person and to fulfill dreams without any helps neither from money nor from other people.
If only I could do such cheating method to get my dream job.
If only I could do those things to just make my parents happy.
Too many if-onlys already.....
Why should I cry for two days when the result was not what I hoped it would turn out.
Why should I argue with my mom, giving her reasons for me not being able to reach the so-called-standard that my destination country has set.
So the number that my destination country has set, wouldn't it be unfair to those honest people??allowing those cheaters to be able to achieve that score easily.
The Test That Sets The Standard.
B*LLSHIT!!!!!!
Thursday, January 28, 2010
A Nation-wide Bad Habit
I dont know how or why nor when Indonesians develop this habit of commenting on someone's body shape and size.
Everytime I meet a person whom I havent seen for such a long time, the first thing they will say "Oh, you gained weight", or "Why havent you lost weight?", or "Oh, you lost so much weight, how did you do that?"
What worse is that I know a person who had been in Australia since primary school but recently came back to Indonesia and has been here for 2 years, first time he said when he met me after so long we havent met each other was, "Oh my God, you gained weight!!"
*WTF*
Tonight when I open my facebook account an aunty of mine who hasnt seen neither my mom nor me for quite a long time said, "Hey, I havent seen your mom for quite some times. She looked not so fat in your graduation picture. When was that?"
I was like WTF??!!!
After all this time we havent gathered together, first thing you commented on was my mom's 'size'??????
Is there nothing else you can criticized other than my mom's 'size'????
Jeezzzzz....
Other nation-wide habit is that Indonesians love to talk about others.
I have a friend whose graduation pictures werent uploaded on facebook, nor printed.
Long story short, nobody has ever seen her graduation picture.
What happened next made me angry.
People start to gossip about her not graduating.
Apparently before her dad went overseas to attend her graduation, he did tell few people about it.
Some even dare to say out loud about that gossip.
Now that she printed one of her graduation photo and put it on her home, people started to say, "oohh..she really graduated"
WHAT THE F*CCCKKK!!!!!!!!
=.=""
Oh dearr..~~~
What kind of world im living in??
Why Indonesians just cannot shut their f*cking mouth up???
Making me even more reluctant to residing back in Indonesia.
Everytime I meet a person whom I havent seen for such a long time, the first thing they will say "Oh, you gained weight", or "Why havent you lost weight?", or "Oh, you lost so much weight, how did you do that?"
What worse is that I know a person who had been in Australia since primary school but recently came back to Indonesia and has been here for 2 years, first time he said when he met me after so long we havent met each other was, "Oh my God, you gained weight!!"
*WTF*
Tonight when I open my facebook account an aunty of mine who hasnt seen neither my mom nor me for quite a long time said, "Hey, I havent seen your mom for quite some times. She looked not so fat in your graduation picture. When was that?"
I was like WTF??!!!
After all this time we havent gathered together, first thing you commented on was my mom's 'size'??????
Is there nothing else you can criticized other than my mom's 'size'????
Jeezzzzz....
Other nation-wide habit is that Indonesians love to talk about others.
I have a friend whose graduation pictures werent uploaded on facebook, nor printed.
Long story short, nobody has ever seen her graduation picture.
What happened next made me angry.
People start to gossip about her not graduating.
Apparently before her dad went overseas to attend her graduation, he did tell few people about it.
Some even dare to say out loud about that gossip.
Now that she printed one of her graduation photo and put it on her home, people started to say, "oohh..she really graduated"
WHAT THE F*CCCKKK!!!!!!!!
=.=""
Oh dearr..~~~
What kind of world im living in??
Why Indonesians just cannot shut their f*cking mouth up???
Making me even more reluctant to residing back in Indonesia.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
why did God create this kind of people?
So,
Recently I metand got to know a person who is so arrogant.
That's my judgement.
I'll tell you what she did and I'll let you judge.
Problem 1:
She said she graduated from a university from an english speaking country.
Her title is from a university that is not the expert in the field she was studying.
For example: If I was studying science then I'd be studying at Monash Uni.
And if I was studying commerce I'd be studying at Melb Uni.
But the thing is the uni she attended isn't a well-known uni.
The next problem is she is speaking a BROKEN english.
And if she ever encountered a girl/boy who study in a not-well-known uni, she will put a "stupid" label on him/her.
Problem 2:
She graduated from a field other than IT.
But when there is a computer problem she will act as if she is smarter than the IT engineer.
She even tell the IT engineer what to do and wasn't acting cooperative.
Problem 3:
She put a "not too rich" label to someone.
While the house she's staying in now was bought by her dad and not by her husband.
What label shall we put??
Problem 4:
A friend of her told me that if one of her staff late for 15 minutes she will ask her staff to fill in a "late form"
However, she never filled in any.
I know most of the stories I heard from a 3rd party but the thing is, a lot of people also testified that she is indeed like that.
So, what will you do if you meet a person like that??
How would you feel??
Would you feel what I feel??
Now I feel like pull her hair, kick her ass, slap her.
I'll kill her if I could=p
Aahhh~~
This world is unfair to those who become the victim..
Anw, for those of you who know who I meant, please do smile, or laugh if necessary
Recently I metand got to know a person who is so arrogant.
That's my judgement.
I'll tell you what she did and I'll let you judge.
Problem 1:
She said she graduated from a university from an english speaking country.
Her title is from a university that is not the expert in the field she was studying.
For example: If I was studying science then I'd be studying at Monash Uni.
And if I was studying commerce I'd be studying at Melb Uni.
But the thing is the uni she attended isn't a well-known uni.
The next problem is she is speaking a BROKEN english.
And if she ever encountered a girl/boy who study in a not-well-known uni, she will put a "stupid" label on him/her.
Problem 2:
She graduated from a field other than IT.
But when there is a computer problem she will act as if she is smarter than the IT engineer.
She even tell the IT engineer what to do and wasn't acting cooperative.
Problem 3:
She put a "not too rich" label to someone.
While the house she's staying in now was bought by her dad and not by her husband.
What label shall we put??
Problem 4:
A friend of her told me that if one of her staff late for 15 minutes she will ask her staff to fill in a "late form"
However, she never filled in any.
I know most of the stories I heard from a 3rd party but the thing is, a lot of people also testified that she is indeed like that.
So, what will you do if you meet a person like that??
How would you feel??
Would you feel what I feel??
Now I feel like pull her hair, kick her ass, slap her.
I'll kill her if I could=p
Aahhh~~
This world is unfair to those who become the victim..
Anw, for those of you who know who I meant, please do smile, or laugh if necessary
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
it's always about a son and never a daughter
My brother is the one who got the new speaker and when I asked to try it for just a week my parents look at me angrily.
My brother is the one my mom accompanied all the way to Malaysia.
My brother is the one for whom my mom bought a bottle of water everyday.
My brother is the one for whom my mom afraid that he will stumbled over a tangled wires.
When my brother took my CD player, my parents said to let it go.
In the end, my parents bought a new one and give their old to me.
And it didn't work and they told me to just listen to the radio.
I'm always the ugly daughter.
I'm always the fat daughter.
I'm always the rebelious daughter.
I'm always the one who befriended with wrong persons.
I'm always the one whose opinions are always too selfish and always wrong.
I'm always the selfish one.
I'm the one who has taken ielts for 3 times and still didn't pass.
I'm the one whose english pronounciation and accent is so bad that my mom who doesn't understand english hates and disgusted with the way I speak english.
And all I want is just a bit of their love.
A bit of their acknowledgement of my achievement.
Is that too much to ask??
My brother is the one my mom accompanied all the way to Malaysia.
My brother is the one for whom my mom bought a bottle of water everyday.
My brother is the one for whom my mom afraid that he will stumbled over a tangled wires.
When my brother took my CD player, my parents said to let it go.
In the end, my parents bought a new one and give their old to me.
And it didn't work and they told me to just listen to the radio.
I'm always the ugly daughter.
I'm always the fat daughter.
I'm always the rebelious daughter.
I'm always the one who befriended with wrong persons.
I'm always the one whose opinions are always too selfish and always wrong.
I'm always the selfish one.
I'm the one who has taken ielts for 3 times and still didn't pass.
I'm the one whose english pronounciation and accent is so bad that my mom who doesn't understand english hates and disgusted with the way I speak english.
And all I want is just a bit of their love.
A bit of their acknowledgement of my achievement.
Is that too much to ask??
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