Dearest Friends

So,
This has been a long due post.
I am back in Indonesia now, for good.
It's kinda sad to know that now Im separated that far away with my friends.
However, it's also a relieve that finally I made a life-changing decision and fulfill it.

So, Dear my friends:
AmS: Im gonna miss you so much. Be strong!!Being a coordinator for something big like that is not easy...You need to learn how to make a decision. Remember, dont keep sacrificing yourself. Dont be soft-hearted.

AdS: Im gonna miss going to mass with you. Im going to miss our cafe sessions, our 'curhat' sessions, our gossip sessions. You guys are already like a sister to me.

SP: Ndut, come back to Indo ASAP!!!!!!!!!! :D

AD: You have made my every morning with your sarcastic jokes ever since I know you. You are the first guy who gave me middle-finger twice in two months time since we were introduced. I will never forget that!!NEVER!!:p

SHS: Thanks for all your help and advices...Though you are one of my friends who always prank me, but yes, I miss those pranks.... >.<

LN: We'll meet in Indo in October..:D

EH: You owe me a dinner in Indo...:P

JA, LO: Tututtt!! I miss you already.... =(

AAng, VA: Im so going to miss our pointless talk at nights.... you guys are my most dependable friends...

BH: When charm and glasses come together, there you are! =D
You've charmed me with your coolness and jokes..=D

CJ: Sorry if I've ever hurt you and made you cry...U still are one of my most dependable friends..:D

Last but not least,
SG: Dont cryyyyyy!!! We'll meet again in Indo one day...=)

Those name are not here doesnt mean I dont miss you..
I just can't find words to describe..;)

Im so gonna miss Melbourne.
In fact, when I wake up to day and start to plan my day, I still put daily mass at 530pm on my list and when I realised I cant do that anymore I cant help but cried..
Our friendship is gonna be so different now..

What is unspokeable by my mouth is expressed by my tears.
Life is gonna be so different now, Im going to face different challenge each and every day and only few of my friends here is going to understand what I am going through because they dont see me everyday like you guys do.

So long, farewell, auf wiedersehen, goodbye.
Im sure one day we'll meet again =D
At least I have that much faith in God..

All my bags are packed

So,
All my bags are packed.
All my clothes are packed.
All my shoes are packed.
And so are all my books.
Im ready to go.
Im standing here in the rather-empty room.
With empty heart.
That does not want to leave Melbourne just yet.

Today, I got an email from a big food company in Indonesia to attend their presentation and English test session on the 20th.
My ticket is for 25th and I dont know if I have the heart to leave Melbourne early.
I dont think I do.
So, what should I do, folks??

And today, talking to you has made my day..=)
You made me smile, you made me laugh.
You entertain me.
It's you..=)

The D Day

So,
As the departure day come closer, my tears seem to be the only way for me to express myself.
I was crying so hard in my prayer today at the mass.
I have no words to say to God.
I am always the person who speaks through words and actions now seem to lost all those ability to express my true feeling.
Only tears spoke the unspoken.
The fear.
The self-doubt.
The uncertainty.
But one thing I know, my friends' prayer will always be with me, and so do mine with them and only then that I will not be separated from Melbourne.

From Mt Gambier to Mt Buller to my anger

So,
After last time's trip to Mornington, we planned another trip on 9th of July.
We've planned this right after we came back from Mornington.
We have reserved that date since what seems to be eons ago..
That time, the choices were either Mt Gambier of Grampians.
So, I told them no, i dont want to go to Grampians.
So, we were going to Mt Gmbier which is 7 hours away from Melbourne.

Few days before our departure, this friend of mine was complaining that she got motion sickness so she preferred not to travel that long distance.
So for 2 people we shifted from Mt Gambier to Mt Buller.
Now what happened????
Both of those people are not going..!!
They backed out from this trip..
Just nice!!!!!

It's My Life

So,
this morning I received a text from one of my best friends saying that he'd like me to do him a favor. He stated quite clearly what he wanted.
So, this afternoon I sent another text to him to confirm what i did was right.
What I got for a reply was kinda upset me..
He said to me to be simple and just do what he asked me to do.
He has been acting strange lately so I dont know how to handle this 'new' friend of mine.
Apparently I handled him the wrong way..
Our friendship was amazing. I just dont want this to end this way.

At the same time, old friend wrote on my facebook wall.
Encouraging me to make action instead of just thinking about my future.
She told me that the four of us, although heading different way, should work harder to achieve our dream.
She said one day when we have at least grab a string of our future we shall celebrate at the usual place.
The thought of it has cheer me up more beyond your imagination.
The thought of our celebration is paramount to me.

This is my life.
Sad things, bad things.
Happy things, good things.
They happened at the same time.
They made me cry, the made me laugh.
They discourage me, at the same time encouraging me.
Thank God that my life is so colourful..;)