Dreams will keep us alive

Ahh..talking about exam..=)
bitter sweet.

I am in swotvac now (which is basically silent week before the official exam period starts).
This will be my very las swotvac, my very last exam.
I am gonna miss uni, miss my old life, as I usually do.=)
but a friend of mine said
"it's ok if you miss exams, but remember, after this after your graduation, you'll be greeted with new, exciting and mysterious life."

Oh man, I already miss lectures and tutes by now.

Lots of things I am missing from my old life.
My high school life. Cheating during tests, skipping classes and get detention, sleeping in class and get scolded while in uni no one cares if you do any of those things.
My uni life. The laughs during lunch break, the rush to classes, the thoughts of skipping classes and go to Chadstone instead.
Goshh..So many beautiful things.
My life is so beautiful with all the mess, the regret, the love, the hatred, the laughter, and the tears.

Only by this time that I know life is irreversible.
Once you go, there is no turning back.
Whatever done is done and you cannot undo.

I dont know what my future brings. All I know is I have dreams and dreams keep me alive.
Those dreams keep me from falling, remind me to stand up and start walking from where I fell.

One thing I am afraid.
I am not afraid of not being success because only I know what is my success.
People's success is not my success.
I am afraid I will lose all my friend. I am afraid of growing up because growing up means leaving behind all your friends who doesnt grow up at the same pace.

My dreams....
London
Paris
Germany
Holland
Prague
PriceWaterhouse Cooper
Singapore
A family of my own
Ballet and Russia (they are a package and inseparable)

Dreams will keep us alive..=)

Women, be smart, beware!!!

So, that day, I was sitting next to a friend of mine. She is cute *fyi, no, Im not a lesbian*, with around 155cm height and petite kind of posture. Long story short, she is pretty. Let's just call her J.

There was a guy, actually a friend of mine also but I'll be happy to pretend that I dont know him *you'll find out why later on*, sitting in front of her. Suddenly when people in the room start to make some noise, he took his Blackberry out, held it behind the back of the person next to him, with the camera facing my friend, and guess what???!!!

I HEARD THE SHUTTER OF HIS BLACKBERRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was like "WTH!!!!"
I was stunned. Literally stunned. For few seconds I kept staring at his phone and trying to digest what had just happened.
He was looking ahead, not turning around, like pretending to act normally.
When all of a sudden, he turned around and saw me staring at his BB speechlessly, he started to get nervous.
He stuttered saying "no, nnggg, no, hhmm.. it was -- it wass his.......hhmmm....*while randomly pointing at the guy next to him*" and then he just gave up explaining what he just did.
At that time I still had not recovered from my shock and started to stare at him and his BB.
I was like "AHAA!!dudee!!you're so busted!!!!" but instead I was still so speechless.
I couldnt help to lol only I didnt because that would be awkward. People will start to question my sanity instead of his.haha.

So then, few minutes after, I told another guy who is a close friend of mine.
I told him what this sicko guy had just did to J and my friend, let's call him S, told me "as if you dont know that he likes to watch-slash-look-slash-staring at pretty girls."
I was like "wtfh!!!For goodness sake!!Blah!"
I mean, who doesnt??
If you are a guy then maybe when you look at a pretty girl you might start admiring or might be fantasizing of ohh-God-knows-what.
If you are a girl, hey!!admit it you will also stare at her admiring her beauty and will start to see how she did her eyes, her cheek, her hair blah blah.
But no sensible person will do what he did!!
Secretly taking photos of other people. Goshh.. He is a PhD student *if Im not mistaken* for crying out loud but he did something so low that I dont think even a kindergarten student will do.

I didnt tell J of what happened that day because I think she might freak out.
So, until today she didnt know that kind of thing even happened.
And I, honestly, am still thinking that she is better off not knowing.

Sooo......
Women, be smart!
beware!!
crazy guys are all around you!!;p




ps: even if you are not pretty, beware!!;p

The love that's gone

I once loved, and was loved
I had you once in my life.
Albeit I dont get to keep you forever
because our forever ended one evening
as the winter wind blew.

But Im grateful you've ever been in my life.
I thank the lord still, for every smile you gave me.
for every bits of the love and laugh
for every bits and pieces.

Because the gap between us just grew larger and larger and never shrink again.
That much i knew.
And that's when the love started to hurt me.

People come and go.
You've gone.
But the memories stay.
And I've got to keep them.
This time, forever.


VaniGo
For the love that was blown away by the winter wind.

The story of ice cream seller and a poor kid

One afternoon, an 8yo boy came to an ice cream shop. Because he was so short, he had to tip on his toe just to see the waitress. He dressed up so ungracefully, so contrary to the nicely fitted ice cream shop.
He asked the waitress, "How much is the sundae cream?".
The waitress said, "five thousand rupiah".
He took some coins from his pocket and started counting while the waitress wait impatiently because behind there was a long line of people with real money who also came to have some ice cream.
Then the boy asked again, "what about the plain cream?". The waitress, looking down at the poor boy, said "It is three thousand five hundred rupiah." and again the boy counted his coins.
Suddenly he made a decision and said, "OK, I'll have the plain cream" and tendered his 3500 rupiah in turn of his ice cream.
After a while, it is time for the waitress to clean the tables. When cleaning the table where the boy sat, she was shocked.
There laid on the table, 2 coins of 500 rupiah, and 5 coins of 100 rupiah (added up to 1500) stacked neatly on the table. The waitress suddenly felt a poignant feeling of sadness and regretfulness.
Actually, that boy could afford a plate of sundae cream. But he sacrificed his own wants for the sake of giving some tip to the waitress and yet she looked down on that boy.

What a beautiful story to teach us how to appreciate all people equally and not the rich only because sometimes the poor are those who know the hardship of life and so, they are more tolerant, more thoughtful to others.
A story to be our wake up call, that we are often times being the waitress. Thinking that we are better than the others, better looking, smarter, richer, know more knowledge while all we do was just making us look like a fool to the world.



Anywayyy...
I was watching a new Tw drama called Xia yi zhan, xinfu (next stop, happiness).
There were so many sweet lines in the drama that I would like to quote. Unfortunately I forgot some of them. So, let's see what I got here..haha;p
Too bad I can't write the Chinese character..=(

Boy when leaving the girl:
"Ni yi ge ren xiao xin yi dian, you shi jiao wo"
(you be careful when I leave you alone, if anything happen, just call me) aawww..;p

Boy said to the girl:
"Wo xiang gen ni sho. Yi hou, ru guo ni yu dao le shen me wei xian, bu yao jiao BoHoLong, ni zi yao jiao RenGuangXi. Wo jiu hui chu xian, jiu ni de."
(I just want to tell you, if you encounter some trouble, don't call BoHoLong, you just have to call RenGuangXi. I will come, and save you) aawwwww..so sweett;p

That's all I can recall.
The main male character was played by Vaness wu and the girl was played by the same girl who played in The Outsider. Her name is An YiXuan, if Im not mistaken.
This drama is pretty much similar to F4 *especially with Vaness Wu as the main male character..;p*

Anyway, time to go and sleep..
Nitezz..;)

WARNING

This post contains some material that might cause disagreement. Readers discretion and sensibility is a MUST. If you are not sensible, close the tab, the window whatsoever.. OR just move to the next post.. kamsia looohhhh;p

So, I was on the train *again* and my imagination went wild..;p
and i was wondering, if you could ask God to make your future just as you like it, what kind of future will you ask??
of course we assume God will grant whatever you wish.
I know this much is impossible. But when imagination gone wild, nothing is impossible..;p

So, if I could as God, I would as God to give me a husband who is a photographer, or a journalist who would together with me *yes!!that's the point*, go around the world, taking photos, writing articles.
Why is that so?? because there is FREEDOMMM!! *yyaaayy..!!*
Today you could be in London, the next week you could be in Paris, the next day you might end up at some different yet exciting country, the next week, God knew where!!

The closer I am to become an official citizen of the world (read: finish this sux uni life) the more it got me into thinking about what I want, what I will be, what I will do.
I could wake up one day wanting to be an auditor or cost accountant with frantic working hour.
Or waking up the next day wanting to be a photographer or a journalist who can go around the world and get paid *yeaahh!!those people ftw*, only to find the next week those dreams has yet again changed into something like being a housewife, staying at home taking care of kids and making a hella lot of money using my finance knowledge
*now i can hear people yelling "booo!!bullshitt!!you hate finance by that much, Vania"*
yeah i do!!;p
but i believe that you believe that this belief is true:

"there is only a fine line between love and hate"

aw aw awww..talking about love..
what do you think those birds are in?
are they in love??
or, are they in lust??
take a closer lookk...!!!
yeahh..so, are they in love? are they in lust??
what they do next is rather inappropriate and private *which is why i didnt take any pictures of them* the white bird just got on top of the black one. After a few seconds of a light bumping, or jumping, *whatsoever!!I know you know what I mean!!hahaha* they just flew away..LOL.
I guess they are booking a bird motel or something..LOL.

That is why children should not be wandering around by themselves on any station throughout Australia!!;p
Because that might be what they see under no adult surveilance..hahahaha.
What a sicko bird..LOL

Anyway, leave some comments as to what will you ask God *as if that is even possible*??